So this is my determination! :D

I woke up at ten to six this morning, walking to the gym with my homestay mom and then walked back myself. lalaa, im not going to the gym la... And I have to say that, I love the fresh air in the morning, and I actually watched the sunrise. I'd reckoned on having good weather today. But it has been raining for the whole day, even now.

 6.05 am

The first day of term two wasn't really tense. We had fun watching the movie. Looking for Alibrandi. It is an old movie, i think it's the 2000 one, if im not mistaken. But then I was really shocked by the scene. ><" Alibrandi and a guy, on the bed...   What's your imagination? It's for my assignment, something related to religion, families and cultures.

The only sad thing is, the international student isn't allowed to do the sports anymore, We gonna do the extra classes. Mainstream Support? I wanna bowling la...

Went to Garden City after school, my purpose was to get myself some fruits. Who knows the grapes are super expensive that go to $4.98 per kg. they're not even fresh! i still can remember the grapes that i bought last month, 1.2kg for only $2. They're super fresh. So contrast. "All that fuss over a few bucks!" No No.. This can prove that I have the potential to become a smart housewife. (精明的贤良主妇) -.-

Imma planning to go Movieworld this weekend. Who wanna join?! :) Actually I am lazy to go, but I don't want to waste that card which costs me $99.99. Dad bought it last year for me. ><"

The renovation

I've deleted so many posts recently. Actually I think I'm quite persevered for almost three years. I have been using this blog since I was Form Two, but hmmm, I deleted the posts in 2008 and some in 2009.

I wanna change the blog skin. Yes, I gonna do it soon. The only thing is, if i change the template, I gonna lost the banner, the small icon beside each blog title, which I did the cut and paste by myself for almost an hour. ><" So before renovation I need to find those links in the HTML box. Oh god, I'm fed up with those html codes. Sometimes they are interesting. Sometimes they are absolutely, without a doubt, so annoying!!! And by that moment, they seem to be alien words for me.

Seriously I need help for those "alien words" LOL
So, it ended up with, changing only the banner. And i added a background image. It is the easiest way to "change" the blog skin, well, the point is, i know those html, just for those. -.-
By the way, I signed up an account on nuffnang. Thanks to Sam for nuffnang's info. :) and Sing Yee for the facebook "like" button.

I'm back in brissie! I slept for two hours on the plane, and witnessed the sunset. How beautiful it was. Urmm, it's just the sunlight disappeared at the horizon. Not the full sunset anyway. am Planning to go out for shopping tomorrow but sadly it is public holiday. The Public holiday here doesn't mean that you can go everywhere and enjoy. There are less public transports during public holidays. -.- For example, Translink Buses. So I gonna stay at home, unpacking stuffs that I brought.

The ANZ bank issued me a debit card with VISA on it. I was shocked. But then after two months, the bank sent me a letter, saying that I am under 18 and I can't own a VISA card. Yep I know that, that's why I didn't use the card for the past two months. I applied for the new one, and I got it today! :D It disappointed me because the colour isn't as nice as my old one. T.T

p/s guys! If you can't contact me through facebook, send me text messages! I got another phone to insert my DIGI sim card. So I can receive the messages but I can't promise that I'll reply all of them. RM 2 for one message. Sorry. ><"

How are you today? Hmmm, I'm fine, thanks.

Wish you have a good day! ;D Tomorrow will be better. Life is good and always will be.

我喜欢这样的自己

我机车，喜欢为鸡毛蒜皮的事耿耿于怀
我粗鲁，在事不从我愿时会说shit,what the hell
我懦弱，从来不和别人吵架（当然弟弟妹妹们除外）因为我知道自己吵架一定会输

超级讨厌到cafe有人抽烟，我管他纹身纹老虎纹蛇还是纹老鼠，在他面前拿起手掩着口鼻外加一个鄙视的眼神，当然啦我不是那道儿上的，那鄙视的眼神绝不出现在他面前。
超级讨厌加了很多特效的偶像剧，就是突然间那一幕会定格，定格后许许多多bling bling的东西会冒出来大煞风景；就算是我最喜欢的偶像的演出，加了特效我就是不喜欢。
超级讨厌别人在我熟睡时叫我起床，除非是自己心甘情愿、逼不得以逼自己起床；也因此讨厌自己的手机闹铃-那铃声竟然是吴健豪的devil。

喜欢window shopping，即使不买东西，在街上把所有商店都逛完对我来说是种骄傲
喜欢哈哈大笑，我知道这样的丑态真的很丑，没办法；可是为了保持淑女形象我呢的确有下过功夫含蓄的笑。-.- 很明显那不是我对不对？
喜欢吃东西，对美食绝对抗拒不了；体重怎么办？我知道一定是体重计故障了。

想在充斥着浓郁咖啡味的咖啡馆喝喝咖啡上上网和朋友聊聊天，我总觉得这是我们应有的享受。

吃着一大串葡萄总觉得特别开心，为什么呢？因为量很多；吃不胖！

最喜欢逛书店，一逛就是一两个小时，因为我在免费看书，还有站立瘦腿。

看电视剧特别注意演员们的脸部表情，之后拿他们在一部剧中的表情和他们在另一部剧中的表情相比。特别有意思。

和弟弟妹妹们在一起时，喜欢来个突然的狮子吼，着实把他们吓一跳。很有成就感，征服了每每吵架都赢得他们。

更喜欢花三个小时躲在厨房里准备晚餐，五六道菜上桌后却没胃口吃，因为累毙了。

我喜欢这样的自己。
妈妈说还有一年我就快成年了。
我说，不是21岁吗？
妈说，18岁啦，你有没有常识呀？21岁时有自由权。

18岁，多么可怕呀。成年了耶。我突然，不想成年了。
岁数慢慢地接近2字头，想说19岁那年的生日一定要过得很特别。

我很罗嗦吧？我喜欢这样的自己. :D

p/s听听陈奕迅的你的背包.还有周华健的朋友.

你们为什么这么好？

突然想到很多人问的一个问题.
这问题，我并不知道确实的答案。

“你们为什么这么好？ ”

也许，我们喜欢八卦，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个偶像，所以很好
也许，我们长得很像，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个追逐着的梦，所以很好

这么多的也许，所以啦，我们为什么这么好？
绞尽脑汁、想破头了，我还不能给你们一个准确的答案。
这种事儿呀，没个准儿的。

“因为我们是buddy。怎么？看不出来还要问啊？”

回忆起那段时光，凡是我们三人（就称友一和友二吧，毕竟这不光彩，她们也蛮反感的）走在一起就叫做“闪亮三姐妹”
就算其中一个人不与另外两个同行，别人也会问：咦？你们另外一个姐妹呢？
无奈哟。这“可怕”的外号让我想起黑玫瑰陈宝珠，而这让我想起穿着闪闪蓬蓬裙在聚光灯下又唱又跳的女孩儿. -.-
真是太可怕了

回忆再回忆，这是几年前了。和某位一直思念我的朋友（=.=）也不知道为什么就这么好。
形影不离，不离不弃  .______________.
最深刻的回忆就是---两个人为了在课室里与世隔绝，索性用窗帘围着咱俩，用nametag pin一下固定着窗帘，这就上演了我们与世无争、图个清静的戏码。
“你们为什么这么好？”
“哎哟哟，看不出来吗？我们是les!”

荒谬。

那是和女生一起时。
和男生一起时呢...
“为什么你们这么好？”
呀
也许，我们喜欢八卦，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个偶像，所以很好
也许，我们长得很像，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个追逐着的梦，所以很好

这也没个准确的答案。
“因为我们是很好很好的朋友啊”
“哦？真的吗？”
“-.-啊不然咧？”

看，这就是男生和女生的差别。
当这问题时关于一个男生和一个女生时，这种人的天性开始慢慢露出来了。
一问，不相信；二问，“你骗我的吧？”；三问，我是想直接ignore算了。

你呢？你们为什么这么好？

问得起这问题的人，说实在的，我跟你也很好。
何不问问你自己，我们为什么这么好？:D

Greatest day of term one.

The last day of term one! We all took out our handphone, ipod and camera. Photos! :)

I didn't take much photos but my friends did. English class was fun because we're just chit-chatting. Chemistry class ahh... Doing the review exercises, then watched a movie, parts of the movie. (The dragon is just too cute!) Maths C class we actually did nothing, except handed in our assignments draft and having funs.

Well, yeah, friends in Miri, Chung Hua Class 5s1, to be specific, you guys are too obsessed with korean guy. Hmm, I have a korean friend and I told him that. He was speechless. -.- yep, if I am the guy I will be so speechless too. But then hoh, korean guys love hot girls!

He is my arabuji(grandfather or old man, in korean) and he used to call me ajuma(欧巴桑in korean). (wth?) He gonna blame me for putting his photo here.

I spent the last period in the computer rooms. It was boring. Then we went to the hall for a short parade. When I got home, I saw my report card. I am not happy with that la... 3A and 3B. aduhh. A for english, chemistry and Maths B. B for biology, physics(T.T) and Maths C. Clare Chua, you must work harder for the next term! (Yes yes, especially on the 5 assignments which due on the third weeks of term two.)

Our new classmate+new teacher(only for Maths C class) today. Super Mario. Let me introduce my new classmate. His name is Mario, age ah, probably sixteen? No, should be older than me cos he has moustache. He is quiet. Obviously, his body size is big. That's it, I enjoyed hugging him.(but he's very heavy.)

The greatest day of term one, gave term one a nice ending. :) Free dresses day today, I wore shorts and a yellow blouse. I found that I was one of the three students to wear yellow outfits. Yellow is nice kay?!

13 April la...

Holiday mood on la... Felt like don't wanna go to school tomorrow, or, playing at the school tomorrow. I bet teachers are not going to teach anyway. WHY? cos term one gonna end tomorrow. How cool. :)

Hmmm, today was the ANZAC day ceremony. Don't ask me what is that. I have no idea. I think it's ceremony like what malaysian do during Hari Kemerdekaan. Yep, but it's a solemn ceremony. It was completely silence this morning. The students' discipline are great, without a doubt. No teachers and no 'prefects' to keep the students' voice down. Even a guy who's always naughty during lessons, he was so quiet during today's ceremony. Respect, that's the point. They know how to respect people who talk on the stage.

The thing that I found interesting was the national anthem. "Australian Advance Fair" This is the third national anthem that I've heard so far. I didn't sing this morning la... But I didn't end up with singing 'Negaraku... Tanah tumpahnya darahku." HAHAHA! miss our national anthem! and 'Sarawak tanah airku..." *I cant remember some of the lyrics.

When the school band was playing the songs, I suddenly miss CHBB. I am really proud of Chung Hua brass band, especially the formation part. GENG! Apart from that, I love the uniform. Sad case that I didn't join the team, well, I didn't persevered, I gave up when I was form two. Parents said it will be very busy and I should concentrate on studies. sigh.

After that was the Student Council BBQ. My friend bought me a sausage with spring onion. It wasn't that nice. LOL. Before school ended, we actually had the sports selection for winter season. aiyaaa, I did the same sports, bowling.

So today was boring... Tomorrow is the last day and so it is the free dress day. However, we can't wear shirts with slogans on them. -.- I wonder if I can find one in my cupboard, otherwise I will wear school uniform.

Tomorrow is the another day! Jiayou guys! :D

p/s Happy birthday. ;)

ISH.

Hmmm yes, it's autumn now. (sounds like im always talking about weather) LOL, whatever la...
It's really cold for me, and i even got sicked yesterday. "I'm such a healthy malaysian when im in malaysia!" hey, it's true, I was sicked for only two times last year, the high fever on the day before orientation and the another one, flu, during exams. haa!

Yes, Friday is the student free day. I'm leaving brissie, but not going back to miri la... Air ticket is so damn expensive, I can afford it, unless I win the Golden Casket powerball thinggy. Five assignments to be completed during the 12 days holidays. ISH! Essay for English and Biology, Graphs, matrices and lots of calculations for Maths B and Maths C, essay+graphs+lots of calculations for physics! letihnya!
But, I'm gonna enjoy this holidays.
Term One is such a long term, with 12 weeks. And i almost go through it! Term 2 will be a long term too, with 8 weeks. Two months la.

Frankly I can't get used to the study style here. I can easily get fidgety during lesson time. hey i used to walk around the classroom, moving here and there last year. But now I need to sit still, for approximately 70 minutes. -.-

I have a friend here. Memang beh tahan that people... Dia memang suka jerit sini jerit sana just for no reason. And then, saya tahu kamu sangat pandai la, jangan shout in front of teacher, saying that 'apa soalan ini. mudah sangat, macam sekolah rendah.' *ignore the malay campur english. just in case someone is reading this. Really sien. Kalau kamu pandai, jangan show off. Kalau ada orang minta tolong, tolonglah! 念念念那边说别人为什么这么简单的都不会做。(not me, just my another friend) I almost went ballistic this afternoon. He/she just can't talk to others in proper manner. Please respect others la. and hoh, although I'm younger than you, I'm still your classmate, respect me please. What's the point for you to shout at me. You don't have that qualifications duhh. You're not the king of this world. To conclude, I just don't want to talk to you anymore, you can make anyone angry, just in a few seconds.

sien lah.

oh well. Just forget about that.

Week 11!!!!

Winter must be cold with no warm memories! What do you reckon? :)

Autumn now. Super duper cold, but I'm sure winter will be colder. (of course la..) I don't think I can tahan during winter time, with the purple jacket that I'm wearing now. Yes, now, during autumn and I'm still feeling cold! So Malaysian right? xD

Done my biology Part B test today. I was in a rush to complete it. I missed two questions and a graph. Sien. But I managed to draw the x-axis of the graph in the nick of time, plus writing my nice name on that paper. heee~ That's me. crazy.

I think it's really a blessing in disguise. I was so desperate about biology during morning tea time and I went to the library to do some research about Maths C. Maths C again, I couldn't find a suitable source for my assignment. Google can help you to find everything in just 1 second, but some of them are not even relevant, somehow. Whatever, the case was, I found something that I needed badly at my first attempt on google search. It appeared as the first results! thank god. (:

Well, my holiday mood is on. Next friday. I gonna meet my family soon! :D Before that I should do some shopping: blouses, jeans, ear rings and snacks.
But then, gonna finish Maths C assignment draft before holidays!

相信吗，我们做得到的

最近他们都在很努力地读书，距离考试还有几个月的时间，他们都在很拼命很拼命地把课本里的东西全都收进脑袋里；一天至少有三分之二的时间都在念书；很努力地追梦、很努力地要拿很好很好的成绩，很努力地想要在众多各族考生中争取他们能拿到的奖学金。这样才能够继续自己的梦想。每个星期都会打通电话给她，每一通的电话我们都是长话短说，极其在乎时间。不是因为话费，而是她读书的时间。是呀，很忙很忙的一年。我在想，如果我还在那儿，我会不会也像他们一样烦恼，每天很努力地读书，争取那对我们来说确实不易得到的奖学金。

每一次都聊到我们的未来。她似乎很犹豫不决，拿不定主意。毕竟那是自己的未来，只要那一步踏错了，就很难在回头。其实呢，很难回头并不代表不能回头。Never say too late. 当然，在当下下了对自己最好的决定，能避免未来不必要的麻烦。不只是她罢了，和他们聊聊天，很少不牵扯到关于上大学继续学业的事。隐然可看出，他们在为自己的未来踌躇不已。

是我反省的时候了吗？我除了做做功课、偶尔看看书复习一下，每天还有时间看两集40分钟的电视剧加上网一个小时。睡觉也比他们多了一倍，每天几乎睡了满8个小时。去年一年的中四生活我和他们一起度过的，不难知道他们现在的生活有多么纠结。想要看个电视剧，却发现自己功课还没做完，要是没做完会影响考试；玩个手机，发个简讯，却觉得非常对不起自己，考试就快到了，要是拿到不满意的分数怎么办；想要睡个午觉、想要早上睡到自然醒，却不断告诉自己这样不行的，时间已经不够了，就只好牺牲一下睡眠时间，少睡一两个钟不会有问题的；一天的课，还要参加课外活动，想旷课外活动这一门课，却时时提醒自己：要奖学金的话课外活动不可以交白卷；上课上了几个小时外加课外活动，累了，晚上却还得上补习班。这就是我身为中四生的心声。

但现在，这些都不在我该烦恼的范围里了。我该烦恼的是，怎么做这一个assignment，怎么安排时间去shopping，怎么让自己在这一年里过得充实。这充实无非是生活经验，可是我还加了些金钱元素。我知道我人在这儿，是因为我花了爸妈一笔数目可观的钱。既然是这样，我就不能浑浑噩噩地过日子。我把电脑搬离书桌，至少减少了我上网的时间；我不reload go card，至少减少了我上街的次数；我告诉自己该习惯睡六个小时（太多了吧？）的觉，不要再奢睡，时间很宝贵。

不拿个好的OP，就不能上好的大学。哼！是不是世界各地都在用成绩来衡量未来在学生心中的分量？我无言了。不拿好成绩，就代表走向未来的路终止了吗？每一次考试都顶呱呱的学生就一定很在乎自己的未来吗？而考试成绩不出色的学生就不在乎自己的未来了吗？或许是这样，因为在很多人眼中就是这样。成绩究竟毁了多少学子的梦啊？

所以，不要再说我过得很轻松，没有你们那般的压力。不要再说我很幸运，有人为我铺好未来的路。也许是有那么一点运气才能造就这一切。难道我没付出努力吗？这就是郭静一首歌的歌词：“不喜欢别人说我幸运，因为他们不懂我有多么努力。” 我的未来，我一样向往，同时也在犹豫，这条路该怎么走。

我们永远都在奋斗。先不说未来，说当下。这下，我们一起努力，好吗？
我们永远知道，在数个春夏秋冬之后聚在一块儿，我们会有我们的成就，与此同时，证明自己的梦很坚韧，还没被成绩给毁了。相信吗，我们做得到的。:D

Can we share? :)

我写一封信给回忆　

究竟月光能不能邮寄温暖

眺望夜空那皎洁的月亮

何时能等到飘来的邮件

说要我签收

重回感动重回笑容

原来我说在梦里掉了一个梦

你捡到了　还给我了

:D

你不知道　你其实没收了梦的一部分

好说，我们share好吧.

Facebook

What is facebook? Is it an important part of life? Apparently, it seems to be a part of our daily life.

I was not that addicted to facebook last year, before DIGI launched the 0.facebook.com program. I didn't have chances to sit in front of computer and log in to facebook. Because of the free facebook login program i get to know more about it. and soon, tsk tsk tskkk... get addicted. It was like... July 2010. I started to browse facebook using my phone, without telling my mom. I can still recall that time, she was wondering why I was using my phone everyday. She thought I was texting. hmmm.

However, I found that facebook is getting boring now. Perhaps I get to login everyday, it is like my daily life routine. Back from school, shower, sleep, wake up, then on my laptop. The first website isn't facebook okay(my homepage is not facebook. so im still not so addicted to it right? hehheee), the second one must be facebook. hmmm, I have been asking myself why I get used to login facebook first. and i got no reason. .___. whatever.

Although it is boring, it is a nice way for me to keep in contact with my friends. We used to update our news, talking nonsense, playing wall chat. We seem retarded but we love it. I like to view photos of others and I admit that im such a kepo person. That's because I have kepo friends. (such a brilliant excuse, isn't it?) The worst part of facebook, to me, is the games. Hmmmm, no offense! Games are kinda boring. Childish. *The truth is, I don't know how to play, even there are instructions. Especially that stealing others vegetables game. Apuhhh, I tried to play that before, and I gave up. WHY?!! because I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STEAL! uhhh. yeh, so I concluded that it is childish. oh nope, all of the games are childish. :X

***SEE, IM ON FACEBOOK AGAIN***

Apart from that, I don't like the facebook chatbox. When you are chatting with someone, it can suddenly turns offline. It annoys me lotssssss. So I often keep offline and get rid of those stupid news in a popped up chat from anonymous.



Whatever, I am still addicted to facebook.


Seriously I need SEBA's novels. ><"

Biology camp 2011

i am back!!! WAHAHAHAHA. freaking tired.

finished my first camp in my life! Frankly, it wasn't that fun, it was educational type. Went to the rocky shore for the transect things, and it was raining damn heavily yesterday in New South Wales. Can you imagine when you are standing on the rocky shore, with the strong wind and big raindrops? with no raincoat? ermm, actually I did bring one there, but it's yellow and I looked like a fireman if I wear it. So, I stood in the rain for approximately two hours.

Then, we went kayaking so that we could reach the mangrove swamp. It was indeed the BEST experience in my life so far. WE(A TEAM OF THREE) HIT A BIG TREE BRANCH, THE BOAT FLIPPED OVER AND WE DROPPED INTO THE WATER. The water is so salty (oh yeh, it's mangrove swamp kay?), and i had an ulcer. ><" how pain was that!!! Lucky that we didn't meet the stingray. Otherwise I will be in the hospital right now. Thank god. We did see one this morning, as big as 32" television.

Night time was the lecture time. I fell asleep. It's boring enough though.
yuhooo. We decided not to sleep but at last we all slept. tsk tsk tskk. It was my first time to sleep in a sleeping bag, with no pillow and my dear spongebob. I would like to say that, it was really a terrible night. Home is the best after all.

The second day, that was also the last day(=.=), we went to the sand dune and did the transect things again. Guys, the dominant plant of sand dune is spinifex. They forms the climax community! (The staff there kept repeating this and thus I could remember this, so well.)

I wore tracksuits and t-shirts with jacket for these two days. The best way to protect my skin from UV rays! I didn't need sunscreen. hehheeee. However, I was like an alien among them. They wore the super short shorts( I wondered how much sunscreen did they need to protect their legs). By the way, I wore tracksuits just to prevent my skin from getting darker. ;S

Talking about meals, dinner was okay, spaghetti bolognaise and salad. Breakfast was.... like kinda pissed me off. FULL CREAM MILK. It's so disgusting anyway. Lunch was burger. UHHH. burger. i hate bread!!!!!!! I was straving when I reached home.

Time to face the assignments and exams results. tadaaaa. Two more weeks then it is my first term holiday! Term one will end in two weeks time! whoaaa. Time really flies. I'm going back! :D

考完试了补眠补了两天，发现人睡太久也会累的.
然后一个特别的人寄了一封email给我.... 太体贴了hahaha!

恭喜美中特优生！:D

hoiiii!2011 Form5 明年就是你们上报了哦~

最优美的笑是自然的笑； 

最诚挚的笑是发自内心的笑； 

最幸福的笑是甜蜜的笑； 

最高兴的笑是眉开眼笑； 

最巧妙的笑是会意而笑； 

最愉快的笑是又说又笑； 

最得意的笑是点头而笑； 

最害羞的笑是低头含笑； 

最动人的笑是含泪而笑； 

最幽默的笑是别人笑自己不笑； 

最调皮的笑是笑了又笑； 

最热闹的笑是哄堂大笑； 

最自豪的笑是哈哈大笑； 

最骄傲的笑是轻蔑的笑； 

最痴呆的笑是莫名其妙地跟着别人笑； 

最顽强的笑是苦笑； 

最使人摸不透的笑是假笑； 

在奇怪的笑是边想边笑； 

最复杂的笑是边哭边笑； 

最难为情的笑是捂着脸羞答答地笑； 

最难看的笑是皮笑肉不笑； 

最难听的笑是狂笑； 

最可怕的笑是嘲笑； 

最残酷的笑是冷笑； 

最可恶的笑是淫笑； 

最阴险的笑是狞笑； 

最可悲的笑是哭后大笑;

From: Facebook. :)

Say goodbye to my yesterday. Bid farewell to yesterday. Bye ya.

我在梦里掉了一个梦，谁捡到，还给我，别没收.

Only you baby I love you.

OH OH OH!!!

I was so damn tired today. I sat the first row in biology class, and i fell asleep in front of the teacher.
Did chemistry exams and Maths C MAPS paper today. It was terrible? There are 4 questions in the Maths C MAPS paper and i got the solution for the first three questions in 30 minutes. and guess what?!!! I spent the remaining 30 minutes on question 4 and i did write something on the paper. But apparently i gonna get 0 mark for that question.

I even phoned my mom when I got home. I told her I would like to study sejarah instead of these. LOL. no lah just kidding. hey At least i can get an A for sejarah but not an A for Maths C. Well, I will work hard to get that achievement. Jiayou Clare Chua. :)

Tomorrow will be the last paper for this week. Maths B MAPS paper. 'MAPS' again. aduh. pening kepala seriously. And and and!!! I'm going to do some shopping in the afternoon. wuhoooo. Getting stuffs for my biology camp next week. It gotta be the first camp in my life. =.= sounds silly but I'm serious. It will not be as FUN as camp chung hua though. Lots of studies to work out during the camp.

SPM results! :) Congratulations to my dear(s)!!! you know who you are! You guys deserve for the results. You are not being sad for not getting A+ or A in chinese. I'm really proud of you. :D You should be proud of yourself 'cos you are a chinese and you did it very well. You got an A-!!!! :)

I have been watching the latest hong kong drama- ONLY YOU. ohgosh kevin chang is so smart! He and Charmaine Sheh are a perfectly matched couple but sadly, they're not going to work together anymore for any dramas. :( *Note that he's not with Charmaine Sheh in ONLY YOU. I'm just thinking of Forensic Science II. Back to the topic, ONLY YOU is nice. Thumbs up. I downloaded those episodes. PPS sucks a lot and it's not functioning well. :(((

Tadaa.
To:Tiff
Looking forward to receive the parcel. Thank you so much. whahahaaaa.
no lah im just kidding but i hope you think i'm being serious by that moment. LOL

Love ya.

Exams exams exams!!!!!!!

uhhh. I have been sleeping late recently. Sleeping at two and wake up at 7, sometimes 8. And i must be at school before 8.25. geng huh? yes, i think so. LOL! i spend fifteen minutes to change my uniform, 5 minutes to tie up my hair(if it's too messy) and 5 minutes to eat breakfast. ><" after that, i gonna RUN to school to make sure i get the full attendance, instead of a LATE PASS. with my ID photo on it. what a shame.

The coming week is an exams week. Some seniors said for the first time we might get a C or D for biology physics and Chemistry, and B or C for Maths B and Maths C. uhh. they scared me lots.
I've been spending the whole afternoon on physics, to get the understanding on vectors and graph! graph is easy but vector isn't. All sorts of vectors with different solutions. I'm going insane. But luckily I have enough patience to deal with them. Thanks to my physics teacher in CH! :)

Really beh tahan using textbooks here. Can't draw or write anything on them. sien. I used to draw cute stuffs, conteng on my textbook last year, especially sejarah textbook. It is easy for a person to go insane while she is studying sejarah. *of course the sejarah textbook was MINE. not from the spbt. So, heheee, my physics teacher here gave me the softcopy of the textbook and i printed them out. WAHAHAHAAA. yea i know i wasted a lot of trees but boh bian, really heavy especially when I need to bring biology and chemistry textbooks. I don't like to store my textbooks in the locker. So, locker is totally useless for me now. It is empty now. .____.

Finally it is the time for me to hand in the insect collection. I swear. I will never touch insects again. except for the moments that I NEED to kill the ants and mosquitoes. I might get a C or D for the assignment. whatever. I don't care anyway.

I care for my grades on the written exams paperssssss! pray for me please. I am really nervous, like I am going to sit for SPM. Lol.

yadayadayadaaaaa. :)

p/s Facebook is boring nowadays.

ok吗？ =)

想起我们赌气的那几分钟，谁也不想先对谁开口说话。
或许我们的傻气、倔强和坦诚朦朦胧胧把问题解决。


今天不知道怎么了，不想说话；安静下来就想睡觉，因为闭上眼睛就能想很多事情。
也许是考试快到了，手机却安静得很，没有你们的无聊msg，没有传来传去的tips，没有散发着咖啡香气的时候...

Time crept. Will be jumping into April soon.

浑浑噩噩地过了三个小时，死命撑开眼睛一直盯着书本，读烦了躺到床上眯了一阵子，醒来头又重重的。

突然想起你问我的“ok吗？”

=)

yuhoooo. I have done my insect collection. Which i struggled for so long time. I don't give high hope on the grade. LOL. cos i have broken mantis leg.
I spent the whole afternoon, setting the dried insects in the box. When I was pinning the first insect that is butterfly, my phone suddenly rang. I managed to answer the call but the anthenna was gone after that. GONE! i was so depressed until my friend gave me another one.
The word that appeared the most in my brain was KANASAI.

Finally it comes to an end. It's next week!
I still need to find mothballs or napthalene. I went to a pharmacy this afternoon and asked whether there's mothballs or not. LOL! The woman there was so friendly. When she knew that i need them for my insect collection, she taught me other ways to prevent STUPID LIVE INSECTS from eating the dried insects. :D

Anyway, here comes the MAIN point of this post!

Happy birthday chong wen yen! :)

=) have a nice one.
miss you lots as you do! :D

Saturday and Sunday!!!

I enjoyed the weekend! Went to the city and stayed with dad at the hotel, not going back to homestay. :) *THERE IS AIR CONDITIONER THERE IS AIR CONDITIONER!!! but it's not summer now.

We went shopping. Visited few fashion shops and bought lots of clothes. Duh, one for $5 only. They just simple threw it on a table, and some even on the floor, kena pijak by ppl. oh dear... Notes that $5=RM 15, still expensive, for the T shirt, no pattern. zzz, but still, dad bought some for me. So hard to find a nice one, he was so patience to find those for me. LOL

I wonder why most of the fashion shops are on sale. One for $4.95, $6.95, $7.99, $9.99. Anyway, I like Malaysia's more. I promise myself that I must go shopping when I first arrive Miri. And buy as many clothes as possible.

KEHKEHKEHH. I ate dimsum for breakfast these two days. No more cereal. =.= We went to Jojo's restaurant for dinner too.

I had pesto pasta. NICE.

the oysters. *so small geh.

Enjoyed these two days. And it is the time to face homework, assignment and exams! yadayadayadaaaa. 

off to bed. night! :D

Shaky way. It means everything.

He was 5, but still lack of the intelligence that a child deserves. He was lonely, living in his own world, setting up a glass wall between him and others. He thought he was abnormal. Maybe he was, obviously he was. But, his parents treated him as a normal child, with lots of care and love. He had difficulties in learning. That's why he couldn't speak even he was 5, not calling Daddy or Mommie. He longed for a normal life, being an active boy, playing soccer under the hot sun, quarreling with his sisters, going to the kindergarten and having fun with friends. He had no friends, everyone loathed to talk to him, because they thought he was a DUMB. Was he an unfortunate wretch? No, he isn't. He is no longer a poor little boy, since the day he tried his best to write a little A, in a awkward and shaky way. Yet, he deserved the triumph. Tears of excitement and hugs from parents.

 A small story, tells me persistence pays off. :)


Smile. Memories start flickering my eyes. typing this in gloomy silence, and finally, i finished my english assignment. same as the little boy, writing in shaky way. Why? I've no idea.

Stick Insects are being schadenfreude!

Hello guys!

It's autumn and obviously it isn't so hot. It is even cold. Need a jacket or a jumper desperately but I think i should enjoy the coldness, cos seniors said that autumn might be so hot sometimes. whatever. =.= i've experienced 38 degree Celsius. Not going to get surprise from the 40 degree Celsius, if it happens. LOL

Biology assignment. I got a praying mantis, thank you so much for spohi. :D One more order is needed to complete it. I have been searching for a stick insect at the forest near my house, but, there might be thousand of them among the treetops, branches and bushes. Because they're stick insects. Looking for them in the rain and I think the stick insects are being schadenfreude.

Stick Insect A: Hey. See.. There's an idiot finding us over there.

Stick Insect B: Ohohoh, she can't find us she can't find us. stupid human.

Finding termites is much more easier. However, no one hopes there are termites at home. So do I. .___.

Sometimes I like to be alone. Doesn't really want to talk to others, just sitting there, in silence. Maybe I am daydreaming, maybe I'm trying to clear my mind, but what i need is just a moment of silence. I appreciate that moment, before I sleep. :)

It is life.

I am really tired of that biology assignment. I have butterfly, beetle, grasshopper, cicada, fly, bee, ant, cockroach, dragonfly. I still need two more orders to complete it. :( Someone said i am stupid, for why i do biology. Someone said I should not do biology in the first term. (so that i can escape from the biology camp and the insect collection).

And i asked myself, why do I take biology? It's all about my ambition. It is adequate to meet the future needs. I used to hate biology so much last year, before the final exam. I tried my best in biology paper during the final exams, and YES, i got what i want. :)

So i shouldn't give up on finding a praying mantis and stick insect. Ohdear, the due date is just three weeks after this. I've been searching for a praying mantis this afternoon, walking under the terrible hot sun for two and a half hours. But I went home empty-handed. I was so dejected and i phoned my daddy. Blamed him for not helping me to find one. HAHAHA.

How can I skip tomorrow's night dinner? Lamb liver dishes. Can someone save me? I had something like turkey 'leg' last night. ><" ohmygosh. I was loathe to eat it. It is something like chicken drumstick, but in a bigger size. The biggest 'chicken drumstick' i've ever seen. 
To say I was scared is an understatement.

Went for bowling. My score sucks a lot. ><" oh well, I'm new in bowling. I like heavier ball, considering the mass and inertia. The bigger the mass, the bigger the inertia. and the more stable it is! hmmm, but the heavy ball hurts my wrist. LOL. guess my score. I think it's a Grade E, if converting into marks and grades.
Anyway, I enjoyed it. :D

 by, Vivian. In the toilet. :X


There is a welcoming program for international students this saturday. Students from others high schools and universities are going to the event. Seniors said it's boring. :O Urmm, should I go? (hate to make decision)

It is life, isn't it? Sadness, depression, happiness, excitement and decision.
As the days progressed, I found IT interesting. :)

宫琐心玉

爱意全在眼神和不经意的言语之间.

宫琐心玉，最近令我疯狂的一套电视剧。 呵虽然是用穿越的老梗可是就是超sweet的。:)

Decision

uhh. I'm planning to go to the seaworld tomorrow. But somehow I don't want to go. It's sunday and sunday supposed to be a relaxing day, not the day for me to spend my 2 hours on the train and whole day playing the roller coaster, watching the dolphin show. What should i do? I hope my mom will not allow me to go, as what she always did in miri. However, she said up to me this time. aduhh.

Sometimes I really like to be alone, staying at home, do some reading, studying and watching dramas. Sometimes I can't get used to a sudden flurry of activities. That's why I'm still pondering whether to go or not going. I have lots of homework, biology, maths B and C, chemistry and physics. I need to do some revision for the coming exams. 

Hahhhh, I'm now finding excuses for me for not going to the one day trip. Maybe I should not go. Okayy, that's it, not going. I am busy! ;X

We talked about the interesting snippets in our life during the english lesson yesterday. I love english lessons although sometimes I really fell asleep. >< We were separated into few groups and I was with a China girl and a Korean boy. It was a really funny conversation. I can't really understand what the Korean boy was talking. He said he's speaking Konglish(Korean+English). LOL! yeh his korean accent is very strong. I've learnt some Korean language, "o ba mi chet su!". The China girl is a nice girl. Much more easier to understand her. It's really nice to be with them.

Thinking of friends. I miss my friends in Miri, so much. I called a special friend last night and we chatted for almost an hour. I wondered how much credit i spend last night. But, who cares?! I miss her. :) I miss the way she talks to me. Piggy's concert on the 12th of April in KL. so, should i go back to M'sia and meet her up and of course, our dearest piggy. :D It is just the second day of my school holidays. sounds great, maybe i should go. LOL!
Friendship that is so powerful beyond belief. :)

Talking about my hair. It's growing longer and longer now. I'm not going to cut it until the end of the year. My friends here were so surprised when they found "jagung" on my hair. (yu mi tang) lol It is nice right? but I was forced to cut it last year, uhhh. How sad. My decision still rankled. 

So, should i go for youth in church tonight? Going there by bus? My housemate will taunt me again. "Don't get lost." ><"

Seriously, I hate to make decision. The seaworld stuff!

Freedom

 

太多的自由  让人措手不及

还是喜欢被人限制  得之不易的自由

"I'm serious now. I'm not joking."

"Is this a joke?"

HOT.

Tied my hair. for the very hot day. errr i know it's round like a pie. DONT CARE!
Then it rains. Have been raining for few hours. Storm.
Anyway it's better than the terrible summer. Can you imagine you're copying homework in rush and sweating at the same time. save me please.
I hope it will be colder next week. It's march and it's autumn. Please, no more 37 degree Celsius!

告诉我

有谁可以告诉我

礼拜一是星期几

Home is Where the heart is. :)

Home is where the heart is. :)

I have home where my family is, I have home where friends use to be together. :D 

What a hubbub! Keep quiet please! and stop sending me invitation for games on facebook. annoying you know?!

Panting for breath at an area of scenic beauty. :)

When my mind was in turmoil

When I was floundering helplessly

You pushed me out of the nightmare.

 

ONE TWO THREE!

我们一起跑  跑出我们的骄傲  我们的疯狂

Thank you My Dear Friends! :)

We panting for breath at an area of scenic beauty.

Yes, WE. :D

我们呢   一起加油！

执著着的快乐

We behaved like petulant children, sitting in gloomy silence with gloomy expression. We had no inkling of what was going on.

你问我: How are you? 我说: Fine. You know how're my days. 然后回加个大大的笑脸，再问How About You? 庆幸的是你不会敷衍我，你总会长篇大论地跟我说一大堆，因为你知道敷衍我你会很惨。xD 他们都不相信我所谓的事实，当我跟他们说时他们第一个反应就是：HA?! 甚至有时候我也会怀疑，却又相信了这个事实或者该说被迫接受，尤其是在你干了什么坏事时候，让我气呼呼地跟他们告状。sien.

明天情人节年怎么过啊？就这么过啊，像过日子般过，没啥特别。可恨，自从Form 2那年收到某人的叶子当情人节礼物，还有Form 3的所谓“卡片”之后就再也没收到了。郁闷。那天有个玫瑰花可是我不接受因为说真的我讨厌红彤彤的玫瑰花，很刺眼。
幸好还有那一张红彤彤的卡片。因为实在忍不住了所以偷偷瞄了一眼，蛮多字的。会有surprise吗？哈我不知道。

The end of the story leaves me panting for more. 

快乐简单吗？不简单吧。早上睡醒亲爱的海绵宝宝还乖乖坐在那里，并没有因为我睡觉时的拳打脚踢而东倒西歪，这时候我就会盯着它说早安，这是快乐；照镜子发现walao eh今天的头发没翘翘的不蓬松，这是快乐；把早餐的cereal倒出来有很多sultanas我会很快乐；到学校把东西放进locker里把它塞得满满的意味着我今天不会过得空虚，我也会很快乐；看电影fast forward一按stop刚好就是要看的那一幕，这更不是普通的快乐；晚上skype听到家人尤其是弟弟说i miss you时简直是快乐到爆；还有就是和朋友skype时他们说我口音变得“马来化”了我更快乐，毕竟我以自己是马来西亚人为荣。谁说的，快乐很简单？一点都不简单吧~

因为我很神经质。神经质到和朋友谈天的当儿可以发白日梦；可以很安静地坐在某个地方凝望着天空半个钟（我觉得这很浪漫耶）；可以走2km的路到supermarket逛一个钟回到家因为鞋子的错长了水泡还很自豪自己今天竟然没花到钱。

We're like a puzzle, together we make a beautiful picture. :)

我在想我到底在执著什么？都快两年了，是不是应该为我的固执而恭贺我？我执著得快乐，从不为自己的执著emo，只会歇斯底里地发个email给朋友，写的字数不多，大部分都是kanasai sien go die的字眼，发了之后继续执著。

因为你说过：我应该也会到你那里去。
所以我执著，我的快乐。你们可以说我笨我不介意因为我也是这样说我自己。:D

搭讪

跟你说啊  搭讪 就这么一回儿事 

眼睛还蛮有电力的  笑容又阳光

哎哟哟问题是我们对这类怪物就是敬而远之

其实感觉还不错  哈哈哈

坏人

这世界上有一半的人是坏人，另一半是他们还不知道自己其实是坏人。

クレア means CLARE! :D

so.... Everything's okay now. Sometimes we are giddy with happiness, but, who cares? :) It's amazing how quickly people adapt 'uh? tsk tskk tsk. *proud of myself HAHAHA!

I was busy writing letters, err, or cards last night. Brain was teeming. with words. I didn't know where to start, what to write because there are too many! ohgosh, i reduced my handwriting size and  i managed to write everything on the card. Gonna go to the post office and hopefully, they will be safe for the whole journey, right towards you guys houses. :)

Yesterday was the coldest day ever in summer time. I was shivering on the way to school. Raining cats and dogs, strong breeze. kanasai. Isn't it stupid to on the fans to the max when it was raining so heavily outside and the temperature was very low? oh dear, someone did that yesterday. i couldn't pay attention during lessons because I felt so cold. My brain was blank. tutttt---

Week 3. I have been here for 3 weeks. I've changed. Guess what? I will NEVER touch an insect if I am still in m'sia. But i was forced to be brave, did the insect collection and mounted a beetle and a butterfly yesterday on the polystrene board. I will NEVER panic if I lost a textbook in m'sia. .___. (sounds weird huh, but really! someone will give it back to me) But I lost my physics textbook today and I walked to the administration office with trembling hands. aduhh. thank god teacher gave it back to me. UHH. Besides, I have never been to the canteen in high school here. Food there is bloody costly. sien.

Frankly, I was quite excited that some of my friends, miri friends gonna come here for their studies. Although we are not very close friend in miri but i wish we can be good friends in future. looking forward to meet them, looking forward for others who are coming next year. It's gonna be amazing if my gang is here.

Assignment. Write a letter to a good friend and describe to my friend my expressions so far in Aus. I think I wrote it to someone in the first week of school? in campur campur language, broken english malay and chinese.
Heyy my friends and even teacher here tot malaysians speak malay only. =.= My english teacher was shocked when she heard me speaking in chinese. HAHAA! 'Can you speak chinese fluently?' YES I CAN! im malaysian chinese ehh. x) and i would like to say that chinese is my first language. ahahahahahaa~

I learnt how to write japanese words today. This is it-クレア. It's clare in japanese! xD tee-heeee.

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

新年快乐！今天早上上课老师还特地学了中文要说“新年快乐”给我们听。结果迟到的我很迟钝地站在老师面前：huh? pardon? 过了五秒才知道老师说的是新年快乐。其实，一个人的新年也没想像中那么糟，当然还是和家人一起过是最好的。

天气特别地热，上星期只有26/27度，今天竟然33/34度。一直看timetable想说哪一节课有冷气。室内和户外简直就是天堂和地狱的差别。ohmygod回到家站在那儿不动也会冒一身的汗。 我期待一个月后的秋天，天气就凉快些吧。怎么说呢，这儿的阳光没马来西亚强，但是照在皮肤上就是刺痛刺痛的感觉，感觉就像阳光在腐蚀自己的皮肤。太惨了~

除夕夜怎么过的呢？和朋友去了一趟city吃了kimchi火锅。第一次除夕夜吃korean food. LOL. 除夕夜的晚上有两个小时是在公车上度过的。我喜欢那种安静的感觉，一站一站地停，会见到不同的人，会有不同的际遇。回到家就是赶功课了~ :X

习惯了，也许就不再恐慌。:)

第一次和朋友吃团圆饭，这里的除夕夜也蛮多人的，多数是koreans. :)

我想，没有什么事是可以不劳而获的，或许明天该试试。愿意尝试，起码还有一半赢的机会。只是必须付出比别人多的心思、努力。

Happy Chinese New Year 2011. It's a rabbit year. :D 

这一年会不会比去年好？

应该吧

Tomorrow is the another day.

This year will be another year. 

ohwell, will update during weekend. :) lots of homework. T.T

somethings went wrong.

无助是什么？
无助就是当你的电脑坏了，而你又是一个电脑白痴，面对着一片乌黑的电脑荧幕，心里在淌血、很想哭又哭不出来的时候。今天早上，我很不情愿无助了一个小时。一边吃早餐捧着一个碗无助地看着电脑荧幕，想拿起电话看看打给哪个电脑专家，看了看contact list，只有四个是这儿的号码，又无助地把电话放到一旁，找worldwide warranty的电话去。结果，那一霎那荧幕亮了。
感谢主。

The first thing i did was to uninstall PPS and EMULE! oh dear, pps sucks a lot. and emule too. I've downloaded six movies in emule and when it's downloading, i can't access to mozilla firefox. wth. Mr Laptop, I promise to treat you like my dear. Please don't angry with me. :( :( :( Don't leave me on the verge of having a nervous breakdown.

uhhh, im sorry!

牛奶糖、笑容，上线了:)

一个小小可爱的小孩努力地做老师的乖宝宝。瞧，他嘴里含着的白兔牛奶糖，就是他的幸福。

有时候不需要特别坚持自己的理念，为了这一种小小的幸福，把理念放背后吧。这一个小小的幸福，就是别人的一个微笑，一个问候，一个眼神。
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半 我们分享我们的笑容。:)

很久没看到的人突然上线了，那是深夜的幸福。呵，我和自己的梦分享。

In your eyes. =)

HAHAHAHAHA! it's weekend. ;)
Time for movies, dramas, facebook and SLEEPING!

Today was the greatest day. That's all. Made new friends, they're from korea, japan and there's a girl from malaysia! Labuan. how cool. :D

tadaaaa. :)

Public Hols Over here!

"So, I announced that tomorrow will be your day off because you guys were doing well on the first day of school, that's yesterday." HAHAHA! Granted, Our principal has a great sense of humour.
It's Australia Day. Oh well i don't know why. Wendy and Roly said it's to commemorate MrSomeone who found Australia land hundreds year ago. Anyway, I've got this chance to escape from school. Okayy im really feeling stressed.
It's not easy to learn to be independent, especially for me. I've never been to a camp before, as my parents don't allow. I seldom go out with friends, errrm i mean something like outings. Other than that, my parents even worried about me when I stayed back at school for some activities. So, I grudgingly admit that Im not independent at all. BUT, I can't be dependent on my parents all my life. That's the point.
It is really weird when you MSN chat with someone who you used to talk to them in the past sixteen years. Whatever I may feel, Im forced to be independent. And frankly it's the right time to learn to be. I'm sixteen, going to seventeen soon. I am no longer the baby girl who needs spoon feeding by daddy and mommie.
So i enjoyed my day. My holiday, I've time to think about my problem and release my stress. maybe I'm just thinking too much. Went to Shorncliffe this evening, swimming there but the water isn't crystal blue. Too bad. It's polluted after the big flood in brisbane.
Tomorrow is the day. Another schoolday. i don't know what's going on. Having the most terrible lesson at the second period. Ohmy. Pray for me. ;)

天塌下来就当被来盖吧

Shake off the nightmare

So...

It's really a tiring day. It was my first day of school and frankly, i was scared and nervous. I think there's nothing called excitement in my heart at that moment. Went for assembly, and it's terribly hot. No fan, no air conditioner anyway. I just have to endure it every week. It might be colder during autumn spring and winter.
After assembly i headed to the administration office, met with the deputy principle to fix up my timetable. I've chosen six subjects, sadly there's NO CHINESE LESSON! ohmygod, i will probably sit for the spm single paper for chinese end of this year. I wonder does it really work? Anyway, the certificate is the most important.
The biggest problem is I can't speak english fluently. I need time to think of what's the person saying, interpreting, then my answer comes out in chinese in my brain, next i need to translate into English. Really felt awkward.
I missed period one and two classes. Went to the period three class and it's English class.( or it's ESL for international student) Introduced myself. ohman, i dislike this session seriously. Everyone's gonna staring at you when you stand up to give a short speech. As in miri, i hate oral exam. :O
The last period I did was Maths B. Something like add maths in M'sia if im not mistaken. I wonder how is Maths C.

Homework for maths B, it's algebra and my brain is rusting after three months holidays. Overall, it's not a bad day. :D

I pray. :)

Life here.

I was as busy as a bee since the day i reached here. I went to high school and bought my new uniform, visited my homestay family, did some shopping for my school shoes(it's black leather shoes with laces up and frankly i think it's super ugly._. No offence!), school socks( oh please they're too long as well and i think i prefer the shorter one, perhaps high school here doesn't allow ankle socks too? i wonder.), shampoo, vitamins and etc. OHYA! My parents bought me a lovely bag. xD

And im free now until next monday. :)

It's summer time. Although it's kinda cold but I need sunglass too. If i need to wear sunglasses, I may need to put on my contact lens. And i'm still not brave enough to try on that because i read many news about surgery caused by contact lens. Anyone can save me please? I admit that i don't have the courage to touch my iris using my fingers.

Friends in Miri should be enjoying their last camp in Form Five. :) And my school will open soon! I've not been studying for approximately three months and i wish i can catch up their syllabus. Looking forward to meet my housemate and my homestay family, and of course my new friends here!
Update with photos on Facebook soon! see ya. :D

Mark your man!

think twice!

Don't believe on malicious rumours, lies and gossips. Think twice. :) 

Good luck everyone.

I'm just a little too lazy to write more. Gonna fly the day after tomorrow! :x I haven't done my packing yet. I hate packing and unpacking stuffs, seriously. I wish my study bedroom is big enough for my lots-of-stuffs. Oh yeh, wait for the photos. :)

will Update my life when i reach there! i miss red rooster and oasis fruit juice badly! xD see ya!!!

oh, don't ask me. I'll give you a lunatic smile. ;)

我爱宅男

这几天啊facebook chatbox或者msn甚至是email,都有人叫我在这里拐一个金发蓝眼的大帅哥。我呕~ 难道我这张脸就写着“我要老外”四个字吗？可见大马人看大马人看得有点厌倦了，看到外国人总会特别注意，以前的我也是这样。中二那年有外国学生参观美中，结果上课时每个人都心不在焉，一直看窗口。一群外国学生经过班上时，除了尖叫就是gasp. LOL! *无奈中。不知道为什么外国人天生就是帅哥，当然，也不是全部。看电影总是有不同的明星，不同的脸，可是就是同样的气质-SMART。

无可否认，外国人中也有许许多多的美女。

我对帅哥有种“生人勿近”的感觉，总觉得他们的眼神微微透露着：我就是帅，你没资格接近我。所以有时候我觉得帅哥有些骄傲。Oops NO OFFENSE! 看明星又不同了，帅的我就会惊叹：天哪长得真不是普通的帅。然后就会自动问自己：=.=天哪他不是去整容吧～

所以呢我不想要一个帅哥当我的伴。自古以来帅哥配美女，安啦，不会有一个帅哥当伴的。不喜欢帅哥的理由，花心。或许是偶像剧看太多了，剧情大多是围绕在一个很花心的帅哥，最后找到真爱才定下心来。花心大萝卜，谁相信啊。剧情是剧情现实是现实。可现实告诉我，帅哥可不是盖的，女朋友换了一个又一个。（我有实例证明，let it be secret LOL!）

总之我呢不会像我在Facebook恶搞的status一样，拐个帅帅的金发蓝眼帅哥。（懒得继续写理由免得得罪帅哥们）
总之我爱有内涵、长相我看得顺眼可不帅、不肮脏邋遢、不属于典型的那种宅男。:)

p/s 爱这篇～我爱宅男

Flood

Where waters had receded in the city centre, sticky mud remained. Officials said the clean-up could take months. Brisbane airport survived the swell and remains open, with almost all flights unaffected. However, passengers are advised to check before travel. Public transport to the airport is severely limited.
--BCC News

At least the airport remains open, but there's limited public transport? I gonna canoe back hotel? swim? Ohman, give me an idea. oh yeh! helicopter! Lol. *Maybe-I'm-crazy-after-all expression. ._____. Hopefully my studies will not be affected. I have not been writing a long essay, sitting in classroom, listening to teachers for few months! Started from final exams last year, which finished on 5 Nov i think.

I've spent the tense few weeks waiting for the news, not Queensland flooding. LOL. It plays a prominent part but seems to be a sad one now.

Finally I found the use of 'latest headlines' which appears at the top of my webpage. ><" noob. I tried to read some, but there are all written in English(of course lah, it's BCC news!), and yet i can't understand all, you-know-why.

Nobody likes to pull a long face or even get misunderstood by others that he is angry, too emotional or what. N'ah, don't comment too much on others. Don't do anything, don't say anything, don't ask anything. It's my new experience. Utter nonsense! Rumours are terrible and you just can't do nothing on it. People who relate will start to harbour doubts about you, your characteristics and whatsoever. We have radical ideas, different solutions to solve problems. Don't judge people by using your own concept. AND, stop telling fibs to yourself. If you like to cheat yourself, okay, just go on, idc.


:) hehheee settled for second best.

Storm

暴风雨来袭。我怕海啸啊！说真的我这辈子还没遇到过大水灾，只有八岁那一次sibu的小水灾，觉得还蛮好玩的。现在听说我下星期可能要面临storm就有一点怕怕。不会像the day after tomorrow或2012电影里面那样“精彩”吧？
敬请期待～看了很多新闻，发现竟然有人因为大水灾失踪和死亡。T.T 让我们为他们哀悼，为其他人pray. :D　愿一切安好。

 老爸叫我list down要买的必需品，我想了一个下午。walao eh我的生活真充实，因为我的必需品很多很多。XD
1) white coffee
这是我第一个想到的必需品。毕竟我在2010年的四个重要event中依赖了它这么久。
2) shorts
因为summer会很热所以想多带几条，还连哄带骗骗了妹妹的几条短裤。XD可是今年应该用不着因为it's a wet summer. :X
3) Seba's books
十多本蝴蝶的书我是坚持要带的，跟老妈抝了几下终于勉强把它们全塞进luggage. 我想应该严重超重了。
4) 长袖毛衣
我发现老爸有好多这种衣哟。我想过了summer应该会很冷，所以老爸把他不穿的全给了我当睡衣。只能当睡衣了因为size是男的XL.

还有一些一定的必需品懒得写，纯粹是要加长幅度。

Someone may harbour a grudge against me. Oh, THANK YOU.
I don't care anyway. :) I was resentful at having been cheated by someone last night. After the three stupid things i'd done with Miss.T, finally cooled down. yiih. The subject is a taboo in our gang now!

胡说八道

有人突然点醒了我，我们的相识只能以月计算。年？呵，我不敢领教。从来不觉得相识时间和信任可以成正比的，现在有人强调说：你错了，那是成正比的。但是我觉得有时候是可以成反比的，认识得越久不代表越可以托付。

因为自己的愚蠢惹来一身臊。笨够了吧我？还要继续笨下去吗？很想double click你的头像跟你说但是理智告诉我不可以，因为你不可以再笨下去了。
与其找借口，不如说，我们由始至终都不敢承认原来的自己，一直活在自己爽就好的谎言中。

或许有天突然想起，也学不会问个为什么，时间摆平了我的零智商摆平了人的无聊和自负。我们没必要要看别人脸色做人吧，又不是宫心计里什么都好得刘三好，这么委屈干吗忍着小心忍出病。你前世欠人的吗？抱歉前世的事我不记得了如果你记得请指教，到底我欠你命呢还是欠你情还是欠你钱。
说到底我没委屈啊，我一边懊恼一边嘴里念念有词，够爽了。

想把一切说给上帝听。所谓的一些某某因为比例不一样了我有难言之隐。

有时候呢，开始已经无法回头，过程不堪回首，结局也大概历历在目，还在纠缠什么？再这样下去别人会觉得厌恶，而你的纠缠就是贪婪了。
妈妈说过：做人不可以贪心哦~
偶尔真期待你们成熟的表演。:) 加油加油我看着呢。
心想事成六六大顺五福临门啊啊啊~ 我相信你们做得到的，无所不能嘛。

Snap! You told me everything i wanna say. Thanks. :) You aren't being truthful with me though.

特别提醒：我呢有一帮很喜欢对号入座的朋友。温馨提醒这里要对号入座或替人对号入座是很困难的，有疑问？问我吧~ Facebook Msn 随便你。问题是我要不要倾诉。
还有，我最近很喜欢胡说八道，就当这是胡说八道篇，一切安好。

smile

Life is so simple. :)

SMILE.

With a legitimate expectation.

have a good day! :D

Dream House .

幻想不只是我的爱好吧，似乎成了一种习惯。

今天在我的脑海里构思了我的dream house。
要有挑高的设计，建筑材料必须是木板，为了让它坚固所以一定要是上等木材，才经得起风吹雨打，日月摧残，重点是，这里有地震。

在哪里建我的dream house呢？首先必须要有一块地，不能是贫瘠的土地因为我想种花种草种菜的。不可以太接近海边，虽然说海景很美，但是我怕海啸。不能在高山上，我没惧高症，只是害怕地震。最好的地点呢就是在郊外，也不要太人烟稀少啦会很恐怖，只要不靠近市中心就好。XD

不喜欢给自己的房子周围围上篱笆，感觉好像被局限。其实这里的治安都蛮好的吧，很多屋子都是没gate没篱笆的。
房子建好以后不要油漆，我喜欢木板自然的颜色，讨厌重重的油漆味。
房间与房间之间不要有明显的间隔。
睡房就在挑高的阁楼上吧。楼梯要最原始的那种，可以移动的。

屋外要有一片空地，记得小时候的房子外的空地超大的，就像一个公园。
庭院一定要大，有时候也可以在屋外办个露营会。搭个帐篷。

幻想的世界很大吧，喜欢做什么就做什么，没人管你，也没人能够控制。:D

That's why I love hallucinating. :)

The excitement gets the adrenalin flowing!

new banner, new year

我向photoshop举双手投降！
:(
将就着用一年吧~ :)

Hello everyone! :D

2 more weeks to go

I dumped my laptop last night and started reading conan comics. :) until i fell asleep.
So i've contact my homestay parents! XD Just wanna work the date out. I should meet with them next week, probably.
And starts my high school life here. :x

I think I should start packing AGAIN. Frankly, i hate packing and unpacking stuffs.
whatever.
And i was totally in mad with the maid this afternoon. She said my orientation-T is hers. wth? Okay, madam, there's chung hua school logo's on the shirt! Don't be ridiculous!

请你不要说话，不要问我爱字怎么写。

两年前就把头发剪了，阿姨说你不觉得可惜啊？这么长的头发剪短？

我说，没关系，旧的不去新的不来。

其实我对自己的长发没什么依恋，毕竟又不是那种乌黑飘逸的。._.

顶着短发过了三年，其间长了的话没时间理发只好绑起来。想想是好久没绑头发了。

我讨厌举起双手一边拿梳子一边绑头发，感觉很累，尤其是头发不听使唤的时候。现在头发又长了，这里理个头发的价钱足够我在m'sia洗个头在set个hair了。

我想我就只好让头发继续长到年尾。我呢，无法想象我如何忍耐。

 

好久没这样绑着头发穿着pinafore.

你们都在奋斗吧？加油。:)

"Forever."

"That's all i'm asking for."

艺人

我不喜欢你们握他的手不喜欢你们送东西给他。

更不喜欢他用你们的相机自拍。

其实呢我的那个他指的是罗志祥。._.

不知道是什么时候喜欢上罗志祥的，就觉得他跳舞超棒，主持搞笑还是其次。说真的他唱慢歌不好听，也许我就是单纯地喜欢看他边唱边跳吧~能边唱边跳劲舞的艺人不多。
第一次看piggy的作品是篮球火，看他和言承旭和吴尊站在一起显得特别“娇小”，看他打起篮球就不同了。一个字：man !
接着就是海派甜心了，丑不啦叽香菇头？有一点小小的失望他没凭这部剧拿到金钟奖，因为他的确是进步了，但是说真的他还有进步的空间，我相信我欣赏的他有朝一日一定会得奖！

我不喜欢你们拼命地show他的muscle不喜欢你们一直特写他的muscle.

更不喜欢他说英文，他的英文很棒只是我喜欢他ABC的华人腔。

这里呢是Van Ness.

看了下一站幸福对他还没特别的感觉，可是啊~Miss.S一直在我耳边念念念吴健豪超帅的~就那时候不知不觉地开始注意他，最近才突然发现“waii !为什么流星花园里有任光晞的脸.!” 然后才恍然大悟原来他就是Van Ness. ==||| 他的确是变了好多。
他很努力地背好下一站幸福里面的华文台词，比起流星花园他演得更好，所以我忿忿不平为什么他没入围金钟奖？！

JJ林俊杰，很少搜罗关于他的新闻，还是他的新闻不多？
是因为Mr.C的一首歌我才发现林俊杰的歌很有特色，example: 曹操、江南、杀手。很特别的曲风。最爱的是那一首“加油”。 :)

我对艺人们的生活还蛮好奇的，看他们在大屏幕上奇装异服金光闪闪的，很想接近他们知道他们是怎么生活的。所以偶尔啊就会想以后也可以做做演艺圈的幕后人员吧，应该很好玩~想要做艺人的经纪人，还想过要做编剧，至少能和艺人见个面顺便拍个照在拿个签名像。但这只是梦啦我从1994年到2010年唯一一次最靠近艺人的就只有那一次。和林建辉拍照，在1metre之内的距离！算是很近的距离了吧。那一次的疯狂举动让我和朋友high了好几天。

记者们很喜欢拿艺人们的隐私来大写文章。也不能全怪他们啦因为粉丝们读者们对这个topic的兴趣爆表吧？没办法～

爸爸说要去台湾旅行，我说好啊，我们2011年年尾去！去看跨年演唱会不管买票还是七早八早去罢位子，我一定要站在舞台前面！或许我们一帮朋友可以约好，一起疯狂地追星。
追星我也有底线，就是绝不会花钱去买那些价钱特高的专辑！浪费钱！
XD

我们的世界，吵架也有默契。:)

Grow Up

 

He makes me laugh. 

:)

I don't think that when people grow up, they will become more broad-minded and can accept everything. Conversely, I think it's aselecting process, knowing what's the most important and what's the least. And then be a simple man.

facebook status!

最近facebook流传的status游戏. 当作2010年最后的回忆。

[29] 29号生日的小姐，不知和你的如意郎君如何了？哈哈！老实说我对你的思念就像一种病 XD 还有我其实最喜欢和你在一起的时光就是gio你，还有感谢你考试时从来没有忘记我啊，真重义气哈哈！喜欢和你讨论书 (kami sama sama suka makan buku) ，还有讨论感情事，骂你龟毛哈啊哈！我还欠你一篇1000字的文章啊，对不起咯还不到那种心情。其实… 再坚强的女生也会流泪，不过，她们一定会从新站起。希望你的前途一片光明阿，真让人嫉妒！哈哈！不过我是真心祝福你的！加油！ ♥

29. weyy why leave all of us here? next year, no more forward msg, no more tips. gonna miss you lots! thanks for trusting me by letting me know the PW. hehe. really. it's touch and ('sweet'?). anyway, all the best to you. seems you're get used to the new environment there. never ever try to forget me here. bleh. miss you badly right now ><"

29 ♥
Whattttt???..你要最特别又要长长的？只能说真心话能type出多少是多少咯！..:P..应该是probation period的时候才跟你混的比较熟hor?..你好像还蛮脆弱的！容易掉泪！那时说哭好像
是种博同情，其实都不是在说你拉！哈哈~ 在某某月突然听说你要离开这里了，有伤心一下下！为了不让你忘记我们买了个spongebob给你！其实还有更大的，只是顾虑这你要怎样带过去时，才买个大不大小不小的给你！哈哈~写到很明显下！ ..:P.. 要记得不要把我们给忘记哦~在那里要好好照顾自己！还有不要忘记我的东西！..:P.. Take care♥ ♥

29: You're turning smaller but please don't turn BIGGER. Known you for six years already. How lucky I am to be always be in the same class with you especially during this few years. Coz you'll never forget to share tips with me :D Can I type not so long one. Some kinda things you know i know jiu OKAY liao lar ♥ I want Aus chocolate from you when you come back to see your small small ♥

Miss 29, I feel like calling ur nickname but it will be too obvious..So better dont la, ho? X) I still rmb we get knw each other at teacher Lee's tuition. You have been vry nice to me since we 1st met :)You aren't just smart but also a helpful, caring friend♥ Although we are miles apart now, hope that our friendship wont be affected. Do let me knw when you're bck. I ♥ the bookmark that u made!! take k always:D

mr/miss 29. havent seen you for a long long time already. you should be doing fine. but surely missing us ! obvious it's you :P love the times we talked about everything and anything. it was nice :) great buddy and same family xD jiayou and i'm sure you'll do fine. if you face any probs, you can always turn to us here ya (: keep up your really pro chinese(i like xp) you're sweet in your own way. all the best!

miss 29~ nanana! urs de lw la!! haha.. most natural when chat with u.. i can bla anything i wan~ even reply u "zzz..." only u oso wont how.. haha.. love to hug u coz ur size nice to hug~ :p haha.. i noe u wont angry de hor? u r a nice fren~ love to go duty with u~ aiya.. next year no ppl help me go canteen buy food lw~ :( hahax.. miss u lots!!! =)

Miss 29, i've known u since primary school! I wish i had ur brains ;P you are my junior and i love u as my sister ♥ i wan you to know its alright for u to have weaknesses and its okay to break down at times! I regret not have hugged you before you left cuz I WILL MISS YOU ! may ur future be bright and im always here for you ;)

miisss 1129,how are you now??:D honestly,i got miss u a bit laaaa XD haha,really got oo,i remember that i like to find u to chat with me cause you're a great a listener and i loveee to say it all to you..hope you don't angry o haha :D i still keep the card that you make for me ,thanks yaa!!I love to have you being my friend,well,jiayou at there,god bless ya♥

1129 小姐，你的要求真的非常多。一下要我写长长，一下又要我先post你的。算了，看你在这么远，心里不平衡就先post你的啦:P 第一次遇到你是在orientation的时候，蛮亲切的..orientation过后还有送我一张card! 希望你忘记里面写什么了 :P hehe，还好上次发生的事解决了，不然我们现在还在莫名其妙生气。:D 过去了，过去了，在那边不要太想我啊..我不想在这变大太多喷嚏！还有，我讨厌spongebob!:P

Miss 29 ! Haa aaaaa knw you since june's training camp ~ vry nice de gal ! Haa aaaaa responsible gal ! friendly gal ~ Haha Sumtimes quite funny too ! :D and online dou can owez see your name de Haha ! However , all the bez larh ! Jiayou next year :)

Dear 1129, you're a senior of mine that was in a class next to mine in 2010 but I think we never had the chance to meet though its so near. Ahaha :) I would love to know you better because you do seem like a fun-to-know person. And so I could give a better answer. xD :D:D

29. wow do you know that 29 is my family's lucky number? hahahaha hmm i only know you this year and like what you said last time, we baru know each other then you are leaving already :( you are a really nice person and cry a lot (haha!) do take care of urself and hope to see you soon! :D

Miss 1129...although you dont know me well,we can still be friend..hahaXDD
i remember i knew you since we are in the concert night i think.Just be nice with the koeh kien.*Do watever you want.lolx
Jia you in you Spm next year.XDD ^^

1000, waiya又要我再写?? 你也是有够烦的!!
我实话实说，如有冒犯请别怪我 ;)
你没用你的digi号码了,right??
前几个星期我delete了一些没有用的contact，嫌它占位子
按到你的contact时，想起当初你换掉我本来给你的contact name==
...你猜我还有没有keep住你的contact?? XD
现在想msg你kacau kacau kepo kepo一下都不能了，有好几次还差点msg到你!! 好才机智的我“悬崖勒马”没有按到send!!
haih..把我写到这样“不切实际”，算了，我原谅你的无知，谁叫你如此痴心地那么爱我呢？;))

我告诉你，pink至高无上，无color能比!! 你这么说已经得罪了不知好几千几万几亿的青春少女了，懂不懂啊你??!!
还有，在老师面前睡觉是你的强项，但是请放心我不会向你拜师学“睡”
还有还有啊，好心你啦，赶快忘了那只黄色无比恶心的怪物，无比可爱的bearbear熊才是你最明智的选择!! XP

 [29] haih.. 我们的关系实在是..模糊不清，介于朋友与恋人之间，不过我喜欢这种微妙的关系，我们就这样保持下去吧，虽然我很清楚明白你想要和我有进一步的发展 ;DD
我们好像还认识蛮久了的ho，只是好像是去年才比较熟，然后越来越熟..
:D 时,我们可以一起嘻嘻哈哈
:( 时,我们也可以一起稀里哗啦
还记得hamburger吗？还记得我们一起聊ojibala吗？哈哈XD
...我开始想你了~~你真的是有够贪心，要我写长长，还把我的心给勾走><
你真的是蛮nice的fren lor，偷偷跟你讲，我有为了你eat过vinegar><，唉，你的荣幸，我的耻辱啊~~ 看到你跟别人酱好，当时我还因为酱所以对你时冷时热..
有回来一定要第一时间来找我,understand??

终于写好了，好才我文笔好，头脑佳，虽然事实上我跟你是无话可说的，但我还是有本事写到好像跟你是无话不谈的死党酱，难怪你会封我为偶像!! 谢谢你啦，我的超级无敌粉丝XD

 

很精彩的回忆。

here's something i wrote for who i love. :)

007 . 007 lagi . aye ! saya rindu kamu ah . aiya saya tahu kamu miss saya . i know kamu always tak mahu muka . but i already get used to it . jangan risau . saya won't hate kamu . don't always beli pinky pinky things . it sucks a lot . :P no offence ! jangan fall asleep in front of cikgu !
p/s damn hard using english an...d bm . that's all !

Mr 1234 ! awww you're so slow ! wahahhaa ! don't wanna mention your talent otherwise others will know . :P I miss the moment texting with you chatting nonsense ! But really beh song when you kept jio me . ._. :P still okay lah i accept . XD nice moment with you during last few school days . and do remember me ! :)

 Miss 1011 ! first of all , i ♥ you . i told you i gonna sleep but im not sleepy yet . maybe 1am later ! :P i miss you badly . i knew you and became best friend since march . i do appreciate you . :) stay cute ! There's moment I'm angry with you and don't really wanna bother you . tee-heee i apologized here . you're the... one who always find me msn or FB when i left ! ♥ thanks !

Miss 620 !!! How are you ? I miss your smile , your hug and your drawings on my books ! ♥ you look like a korean. I love your fair complexion ! *jealous . ><" anyway , jiayou . Best wishes for you . Love the time you gave me your food when im starving . I do appreciate you . stay cute , stay smart !

Dear 120, :) 我喜欢你有感染力的文字，喜欢你的直率坦然，喜欢你的笑容。虽然有时候嘴巴不饶人但是因为这样才会有乐趣。最喜欢的是你的坦率，还有喜欢跟你聊天。跟你聊天的时候很舒服，舒服到滔滔不绝然后被在台上的校长训话。XD 和你聊天时大多数都是你在说我在听，我喜欢这种沟通方式。:) 要写可能写不完因为太多太多了。很特别的一个朋友，XD加油！不习惯跟别人一样跟你甜言蜜语不习惯每一次在每一个post后面加♥。:P but you're special to me.

Dear 120, :) 我喜欢你有感染力的文字，喜欢你的直率坦然，喜欢你的笑容。虽然有时候嘴巴不饶人但是因为这样才会有乐趣。最喜欢的是你的坦率，还有喜欢跟你聊天。跟你聊天的时候很舒服，舒服到滔滔不绝然后被在台上的校长训话。XD 和你聊天时大多数都是你在说我在听，我喜欢这种沟通方式。:) 要写可能写不完因为太多太多了。很特别的一个朋友，XD加油！不习惯跟别人一样跟你甜言蜜语不习惯每一次在每一个post后面加♥。:P but you're special to me.

Miss 2020, we love food ! *high 5!! XD you always give me advice. :) a mature friend but sometimes you're being so childish. :P i miss the time we stayed together talking crap. :)

Miss 1314, you're special. the one who always disturbed me during lessons. asked me fei fei questions. but you're special. really. love you always. do stay healthy always, smart, pretty ! jiayou!

Miss 520 (ii). you'r the second one who loves me! thank you! :P i knew you six months ago but we became best friend in this six months. we shared everything. we never quarrel. but i purposely made you angry that time. BUT! you didn't quarrel with me. how sadd! XD i will never forget how you help me in that stupid thing.... our conversation. our meal. our present. thanks! curtain at dewan suarah! we gonna miss that!♥

Miss 520 (i) , your number is just so so so so special. is it confession? :O sorry. :( and you're miss 520 (i). awwww, there's another person who stated 520 !
hahaaa, anyway, jiayou . i miss you badly. felt like you always emo these days. just cheer up. and later we continue our handwriting war. XP i miss it

Miss/Mr 1111, :) !!! 我喜欢跟你说话的时候，你很专心地听我说，虽然之后会糗我，但是真的和你说话很开心。有被人重视的感觉。跟你聊那些有的没的很自在，也很高兴你在第一时间会text我。:) (hope you can continue next year i'll receive your msg)
我说啊如果你的愿望不能达成就看开一点，那里也是另一个天空。 :) 还有你答应我的秘密还没告诉我。我不会忘记你的:D放心。♥

Miss/Mr 325, :D you're really a great friend. we chatted about the private things. :P remember the XX kilograms? XD terrible right? you shared many things with me. and you are the only one who chatted with me first during my first duty. although you're ngiaoji. XP jiayou.