Girls' power

Three days holidays for me. Yes, Saturday and Sunday are always holidays for me, so I have so many holidays in my life. :)

Went to city after school with my friend, Angel. Just can't underestimate girls' power. We can shop for three hours, non-stop, and even skipped our dinner. To save time, we chose to have only the Oasis juice for dinner. It's located in front of the Myer Centre. Nice and healthy drink. My dad loves it.

I had the J12, THE CLEANSER, which contains carrot(YUMM!), beetroot(I don't know what's that, my friend said it's kind of vegetables.). I googled it and rupa-rupanya! :)

Honestly speaking, I've never seen this vege before, but it tastes good. No wonder la, I was like sucking blood last night. I was shocked when I saw the juice, RED in colour. It's like dark red, not the red that watermelon juice looks like. Anyway, it's nice.

Angel had the JAMAICA juice, which contains apple, watermelon bla bla blaaa(i can't remember) I used to drink this last year as my dad bought this. But, I am addicted to the Red juice after my first try. gonna get another one when I go to the city.

Left: Mine; Right: Angel's

The Oasis juice bar. 

Source from, http://people.aapt.net.au/oasisjuicebar/home.htm

We spent an hour at the Diva's shop. I bought two necklaces for $10! How cool, it's on promotion, the BFF series. :)

And seven pairs of lead free ear rings for sis. 

I like this i like this i like this. Cute right? gonna wear it tomorrow. :D

The another necklace is so special too, don't wanna post it up cos it's for someone who's special too. (:

I bought the other two necklaces from a Korean shop called Cozy Corner. 

The one with blue strips and flower. :)

Made in Korea. Lol, i think it is the first thing I bought which is made in Korea.

By the way, necklace. I wanna this. The tear drops necklace from the korean drama 49 days. 

It's on sale now. Should I buy it? There are three choices: with one drop of tear, two drops or three drops. (Well, this is related to the drama itself, i'll talk about it in another post. coming soon! After i finish the newest episode.)

http://shop.innolife.com/shop/main.php?ac_id=85&inno_Session=336471612828d34551cb17b12cfb5475

I wish I can find one at the korean store in the city, instead of buying one from the internet. Don't wanna take the risk. 

Song-Yi-Hgun/Shin-Yi-Hyun is wearing it. This is the one with one drop of tear(from who? another post!)

It's mid-autumn and last night, it was freaking cold. I was shivering in my blankets and had a nightmare. ><" My homestay bought me and my housemate two pairs of bedsocks. :) I chose the blue one. xD

 I also bought a pair of slippers from woolly. 

*ignore my pyjamas. It's 4pm now and i'm still wearing it, because it can keep me warm and comfortable. :)

I gonna gain weight if I eat this. The easter bunny from my homestay.

The best way is, 'chia' my friends! HAHAHA

Angel and I were having our "dinner" xD

The end of this post. :) Enjoyed my Friday night, but it was scary to walk home alone at 10pm. ><"
I'm growing up! :D

幸福地固执着

是否试过怎么努力结果什么都没得到?
那种滋味的确不好受对吧？
然后就会安慰自己说没关系，不是我的就不是我的，勉强是没有幸福的。
在一些例子上这个自我安慰是奏效的；毕竟有失必有得。

我从来没想过自己会下这么大的决心
我不管，我就是要。很倔强；很固执；很顽固。
可是若是我不要，会纠结一段很长的时间；然后自暴自弃

this can eventually change your life.
我知道你这烂口号；但我相信。
我觉得自己还蛮固执的。你觉得呢？

但是呀，我幸福地固执着. :)

So this is my determination! :D

I woke up at ten to six this morning, walking to the gym with my homestay mom and then walked back myself. lalaa, im not going to the gym la... And I have to say that, I love the fresh air in the morning, and I actually watched the sunrise. I'd reckoned on having good weather today. But it has been raining for the whole day, even now.

 6.05 am

The first day of term two wasn't really tense. We had fun watching the movie. Looking for Alibrandi. It is an old movie, i think it's the 2000 one, if im not mistaken. But then I was really shocked by the scene. ><" Alibrandi and a guy, on the bed...   What's your imagination? It's for my assignment, something related to religion, families and cultures.

The only sad thing is, the international student isn't allowed to do the sports anymore, We gonna do the extra classes. Mainstream Support? I wanna bowling la...

Went to Garden City after school, my purpose was to get myself some fruits. Who knows the grapes are super expensive that go to $4.98 per kg. they're not even fresh! i still can remember the grapes that i bought last month, 1.2kg for only $2. They're super fresh. So contrast. "All that fuss over a few bucks!" No No.. This can prove that I have the potential to become a smart housewife. (精明的贤良主妇) -.-

Imma planning to go Movieworld this weekend. Who wanna join?! :) Actually I am lazy to go, but I don't want to waste that card which costs me $99.99. Dad bought it last year for me. ><"

The renovation

I've deleted so many posts recently. Actually I think I'm quite persevered for almost three years. I have been using this blog since I was Form Two, but hmmm, I deleted the posts in 2008 and some in 2009.

I wanna change the blog skin. Yes, I gonna do it soon. The only thing is, if i change the template, I gonna lost the banner, the small icon beside each blog title, which I did the cut and paste by myself for almost an hour. ><" So before renovation I need to find those links in the HTML box. Oh god, I'm fed up with those html codes. Sometimes they are interesting. Sometimes they are absolutely, without a doubt, so annoying!!! And by that moment, they seem to be alien words for me.

Seriously I need help for those "alien words" LOL
So, it ended up with, changing only the banner. And i added a background image. It is the easiest way to "change" the blog skin, well, the point is, i know those html, just for those. -.-
By the way, I signed up an account on nuffnang. Thanks to Sam for nuffnang's info. :) and Sing Yee for the facebook "like" button.

I'm back in brissie! I slept for two hours on the plane, and witnessed the sunset. How beautiful it was. Urmm, it's just the sunlight disappeared at the horizon. Not the full sunset anyway. am Planning to go out for shopping tomorrow but sadly it is public holiday. The Public holiday here doesn't mean that you can go everywhere and enjoy. There are less public transports during public holidays. -.- For example, Translink Buses. So I gonna stay at home, unpacking stuffs that I brought.

The ANZ bank issued me a debit card with VISA on it. I was shocked. But then after two months, the bank sent me a letter, saying that I am under 18 and I can't own a VISA card. Yep I know that, that's why I didn't use the card for the past two months. I applied for the new one, and I got it today! :D It disappointed me because the colour isn't as nice as my old one. T.T

p/s guys! If you can't contact me through facebook, send me text messages! I got another phone to insert my DIGI sim card. So I can receive the messages but I can't promise that I'll reply all of them. RM 2 for one message. Sorry. ><"

How are you today? Hmmm, I'm fine, thanks.

Wish you have a good day! ;D Tomorrow will be better. Life is good and always will be.

我喜欢这样的自己

我机车，喜欢为鸡毛蒜皮的事耿耿于怀
我粗鲁，在事不从我愿时会说shit,what the hell
我懦弱，从来不和别人吵架（当然弟弟妹妹们除外）因为我知道自己吵架一定会输

超级讨厌到cafe有人抽烟，我管他纹身纹老虎纹蛇还是纹老鼠，在他面前拿起手掩着口鼻外加一个鄙视的眼神，当然啦我不是那道儿上的，那鄙视的眼神绝不出现在他面前。
超级讨厌加了很多特效的偶像剧，就是突然间那一幕会定格，定格后许许多多bling bling的东西会冒出来大煞风景；就算是我最喜欢的偶像的演出，加了特效我就是不喜欢。
超级讨厌别人在我熟睡时叫我起床，除非是自己心甘情愿、逼不得以逼自己起床；也因此讨厌自己的手机闹铃-那铃声竟然是吴健豪的devil。

喜欢window shopping，即使不买东西，在街上把所有商店都逛完对我来说是种骄傲
喜欢哈哈大笑，我知道这样的丑态真的很丑，没办法；可是为了保持淑女形象我呢的确有下过功夫含蓄的笑。-.- 很明显那不是我对不对？
喜欢吃东西，对美食绝对抗拒不了；体重怎么办？我知道一定是体重计故障了。

想在充斥着浓郁咖啡味的咖啡馆喝喝咖啡上上网和朋友聊聊天，我总觉得这是我们应有的享受。

吃着一大串葡萄总觉得特别开心，为什么呢？因为量很多；吃不胖！

最喜欢逛书店，一逛就是一两个小时，因为我在免费看书，还有站立瘦腿。

看电视剧特别注意演员们的脸部表情，之后拿他们在一部剧中的表情和他们在另一部剧中的表情相比。特别有意思。

和弟弟妹妹们在一起时，喜欢来个突然的狮子吼，着实把他们吓一跳。很有成就感，征服了每每吵架都赢得他们。

更喜欢花三个小时躲在厨房里准备晚餐，五六道菜上桌后却没胃口吃，因为累毙了。

我喜欢这样的自己。
妈妈说还有一年我就快成年了。
我说，不是21岁吗？
妈说，18岁啦，你有没有常识呀？21岁时有自由权。

18岁，多么可怕呀。成年了耶。我突然，不想成年了。
岁数慢慢地接近2字头，想说19岁那年的生日一定要过得很特别。

我很罗嗦吧？我喜欢这样的自己. :D

p/s听听陈奕迅的你的背包.还有周华健的朋友.

你们为什么这么好？

突然想到很多人问的一个问题.
这问题，我并不知道确实的答案。

“你们为什么这么好？ ”

也许，我们喜欢八卦，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个偶像，所以很好
也许，我们长得很像，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个追逐着的梦，所以很好

这么多的也许，所以啦，我们为什么这么好？
绞尽脑汁、想破头了，我还不能给你们一个准确的答案。
这种事儿呀，没个准儿的。

“因为我们是buddy。怎么？看不出来还要问啊？”

回忆起那段时光，凡是我们三人（就称友一和友二吧，毕竟这不光彩，她们也蛮反感的）走在一起就叫做“闪亮三姐妹”
就算其中一个人不与另外两个同行，别人也会问：咦？你们另外一个姐妹呢？
无奈哟。这“可怕”的外号让我想起黑玫瑰陈宝珠，而这让我想起穿着闪闪蓬蓬裙在聚光灯下又唱又跳的女孩儿. -.-
真是太可怕了

回忆再回忆，这是几年前了。和某位一直思念我的朋友（=.=）也不知道为什么就这么好。
形影不离，不离不弃  .______________.
最深刻的回忆就是---两个人为了在课室里与世隔绝，索性用窗帘围着咱俩，用nametag pin一下固定着窗帘，这就上演了我们与世无争、图个清静的戏码。
“你们为什么这么好？”
“哎哟哟，看不出来吗？我们是les!”

荒谬。

那是和女生一起时。
和男生一起时呢...
“为什么你们这么好？”
呀
也许，我们喜欢八卦，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个偶像，所以很好
也许，我们长得很像，所以很好
也许，我们有同一个追逐着的梦，所以很好

这也没个准确的答案。
“因为我们是很好很好的朋友啊”
“哦？真的吗？”
“-.-啊不然咧？”

看，这就是男生和女生的差别。
当这问题时关于一个男生和一个女生时，这种人的天性开始慢慢露出来了。
一问，不相信；二问，“你骗我的吧？”；三问，我是想直接ignore算了。

你呢？你们为什么这么好？

问得起这问题的人，说实在的，我跟你也很好。
何不问问你自己，我们为什么这么好？:D

Greatest day of term one.

The last day of term one! We all took out our handphone, ipod and camera. Photos! :)

I didn't take much photos but my friends did. English class was fun because we're just chit-chatting. Chemistry class ahh... Doing the review exercises, then watched a movie, parts of the movie. (The dragon is just too cute!) Maths C class we actually did nothing, except handed in our assignments draft and having funs.

Well, yeah, friends in Miri, Chung Hua Class 5s1, to be specific, you guys are too obsessed with korean guy. Hmm, I have a korean friend and I told him that. He was speechless. -.- yep, if I am the guy I will be so speechless too. But then hoh, korean guys love hot girls!

He is my arabuji(grandfather or old man, in korean) and he used to call me ajuma(欧巴桑in korean). (wth?) He gonna blame me for putting his photo here.

I spent the last period in the computer rooms. It was boring. Then we went to the hall for a short parade. When I got home, I saw my report card. I am not happy with that la... 3A and 3B. aduhh. A for english, chemistry and Maths B. B for biology, physics(T.T) and Maths C. Clare Chua, you must work harder for the next term! (Yes yes, especially on the 5 assignments which due on the third weeks of term two.)

Our new classmate+new teacher(only for Maths C class) today. Super Mario. Let me introduce my new classmate. His name is Mario, age ah, probably sixteen? No, should be older than me cos he has moustache. He is quiet. Obviously, his body size is big. That's it, I enjoyed hugging him.(but he's very heavy.)

The greatest day of term one, gave term one a nice ending. :) Free dresses day today, I wore shorts and a yellow blouse. I found that I was one of the three students to wear yellow outfits. Yellow is nice kay?!

13 April la...

Holiday mood on la... Felt like don't wanna go to school tomorrow, or, playing at the school tomorrow. I bet teachers are not going to teach anyway. WHY? cos term one gonna end tomorrow. How cool. :)

Hmmm, today was the ANZAC day ceremony. Don't ask me what is that. I have no idea. I think it's ceremony like what malaysian do during Hari Kemerdekaan. Yep, but it's a solemn ceremony. It was completely silence this morning. The students' discipline are great, without a doubt. No teachers and no 'prefects' to keep the students' voice down. Even a guy who's always naughty during lessons, he was so quiet during today's ceremony. Respect, that's the point. They know how to respect people who talk on the stage.

The thing that I found interesting was the national anthem. "Australian Advance Fair" This is the third national anthem that I've heard so far. I didn't sing this morning la... But I didn't end up with singing 'Negaraku... Tanah tumpahnya darahku." HAHAHA! miss our national anthem! and 'Sarawak tanah airku..." *I cant remember some of the lyrics.

When the school band was playing the songs, I suddenly miss CHBB. I am really proud of Chung Hua brass band, especially the formation part. GENG! Apart from that, I love the uniform. Sad case that I didn't join the team, well, I didn't persevered, I gave up when I was form two. Parents said it will be very busy and I should concentrate on studies. sigh.

After that was the Student Council BBQ. My friend bought me a sausage with spring onion. It wasn't that nice. LOL. Before school ended, we actually had the sports selection for winter season. aiyaaa, I did the same sports, bowling.

So today was boring... Tomorrow is the last day and so it is the free dress day. However, we can't wear shirts with slogans on them. -.- I wonder if I can find one in my cupboard, otherwise I will wear school uniform.

Tomorrow is the another day! Jiayou guys! :D

p/s Happy birthday. ;)

ISH.

Hmmm yes, it's autumn now. (sounds like im always talking about weather) LOL, whatever la...
It's really cold for me, and i even got sicked yesterday. "I'm such a healthy malaysian when im in malaysia!" hey, it's true, I was sicked for only two times last year, the high fever on the day before orientation and the another one, flu, during exams. haa!

Yes, Friday is the student free day. I'm leaving brissie, but not going back to miri la... Air ticket is so damn expensive, I can afford it, unless I win the Golden Casket powerball thinggy. Five assignments to be completed during the 12 days holidays. ISH! Essay for English and Biology, Graphs, matrices and lots of calculations for Maths B and Maths C, essay+graphs+lots of calculations for physics! letihnya!
But, I'm gonna enjoy this holidays.
Term One is such a long term, with 12 weeks. And i almost go through it! Term 2 will be a long term too, with 8 weeks. Two months la.

Frankly I can't get used to the study style here. I can easily get fidgety during lesson time. hey i used to walk around the classroom, moving here and there last year. But now I need to sit still, for approximately 70 minutes. -.-

I have a friend here. Memang beh tahan that people... Dia memang suka jerit sini jerit sana just for no reason. And then, saya tahu kamu sangat pandai la, jangan shout in front of teacher, saying that 'apa soalan ini. mudah sangat, macam sekolah rendah.' *ignore the malay campur english. just in case someone is reading this. Really sien. Kalau kamu pandai, jangan show off. Kalau ada orang minta tolong, tolonglah! 念念念那边说别人为什么这么简单的都不会做。(not me, just my another friend) I almost went ballistic this afternoon. He/she just can't talk to others in proper manner. Please respect others la. and hoh, although I'm younger than you, I'm still your classmate, respect me please. What's the point for you to shout at me. You don't have that qualifications duhh. You're not the king of this world. To conclude, I just don't want to talk to you anymore, you can make anyone angry, just in a few seconds.

sien lah.

oh well. Just forget about that.

Week 11!!!!

Winter must be cold with no warm memories! What do you reckon? :)

Autumn now. Super duper cold, but I'm sure winter will be colder. (of course la..) I don't think I can tahan during winter time, with the purple jacket that I'm wearing now. Yes, now, during autumn and I'm still feeling cold! So Malaysian right? xD

Done my biology Part B test today. I was in a rush to complete it. I missed two questions and a graph. Sien. But I managed to draw the x-axis of the graph in the nick of time, plus writing my nice name on that paper. heee~ That's me. crazy.

I think it's really a blessing in disguise. I was so desperate about biology during morning tea time and I went to the library to do some research about Maths C. Maths C again, I couldn't find a suitable source for my assignment. Google can help you to find everything in just 1 second, but some of them are not even relevant, somehow. Whatever, the case was, I found something that I needed badly at my first attempt on google search. It appeared as the first results! thank god. (:

Well, my holiday mood is on. Next friday. I gonna meet my family soon! :D Before that I should do some shopping: blouses, jeans, ear rings and snacks.
But then, gonna finish Maths C assignment draft before holidays!

相信吗，我们做得到的

最近他们都在很努力地读书，距离考试还有几个月的时间，他们都在很拼命很拼命地把课本里的东西全都收进脑袋里；一天至少有三分之二的时间都在念书；很努力地追梦、很努力地要拿很好很好的成绩，很努力地想要在众多各族考生中争取他们能拿到的奖学金。这样才能够继续自己的梦想。每个星期都会打通电话给她，每一通的电话我们都是长话短说，极其在乎时间。不是因为话费，而是她读书的时间。是呀，很忙很忙的一年。我在想，如果我还在那儿，我会不会也像他们一样烦恼，每天很努力地读书，争取那对我们来说确实不易得到的奖学金。

每一次都聊到我们的未来。她似乎很犹豫不决，拿不定主意。毕竟那是自己的未来，只要那一步踏错了，就很难在回头。其实呢，很难回头并不代表不能回头。Never say too late. 当然，在当下下了对自己最好的决定，能避免未来不必要的麻烦。不只是她罢了，和他们聊聊天，很少不牵扯到关于上大学继续学业的事。隐然可看出，他们在为自己的未来踌躇不已。

是我反省的时候了吗？我除了做做功课、偶尔看看书复习一下，每天还有时间看两集40分钟的电视剧加上网一个小时。睡觉也比他们多了一倍，每天几乎睡了满8个小时。去年一年的中四生活我和他们一起度过的，不难知道他们现在的生活有多么纠结。想要看个电视剧，却发现自己功课还没做完，要是没做完会影响考试；玩个手机，发个简讯，却觉得非常对不起自己，考试就快到了，要是拿到不满意的分数怎么办；想要睡个午觉、想要早上睡到自然醒，却不断告诉自己这样不行的，时间已经不够了，就只好牺牲一下睡眠时间，少睡一两个钟不会有问题的；一天的课，还要参加课外活动，想旷课外活动这一门课，却时时提醒自己：要奖学金的话课外活动不可以交白卷；上课上了几个小时外加课外活动，累了，晚上却还得上补习班。这就是我身为中四生的心声。

但现在，这些都不在我该烦恼的范围里了。我该烦恼的是，怎么做这一个assignment，怎么安排时间去shopping，怎么让自己在这一年里过得充实。这充实无非是生活经验，可是我还加了些金钱元素。我知道我人在这儿，是因为我花了爸妈一笔数目可观的钱。既然是这样，我就不能浑浑噩噩地过日子。我把电脑搬离书桌，至少减少了我上网的时间；我不reload go card，至少减少了我上街的次数；我告诉自己该习惯睡六个小时（太多了吧？）的觉，不要再奢睡，时间很宝贵。

不拿个好的OP，就不能上好的大学。哼！是不是世界各地都在用成绩来衡量未来在学生心中的分量？我无言了。不拿好成绩，就代表走向未来的路终止了吗？每一次考试都顶呱呱的学生就一定很在乎自己的未来吗？而考试成绩不出色的学生就不在乎自己的未来了吗？或许是这样，因为在很多人眼中就是这样。成绩究竟毁了多少学子的梦啊？

所以，不要再说我过得很轻松，没有你们那般的压力。不要再说我很幸运，有人为我铺好未来的路。也许是有那么一点运气才能造就这一切。难道我没付出努力吗？这就是郭静一首歌的歌词：“不喜欢别人说我幸运，因为他们不懂我有多么努力。” 我的未来，我一样向往，同时也在犹豫，这条路该怎么走。

我们永远都在奋斗。先不说未来，说当下。这下，我们一起努力，好吗？
我们永远知道，在数个春夏秋冬之后聚在一块儿，我们会有我们的成就，与此同时，证明自己的梦很坚韧，还没被成绩给毁了。相信吗，我们做得到的。:D