怕，三天

考试前三个星期；大解放倒数一个月。
考试前夕总是很忙很忙，忙到来大家其实都还有时间做一些平时不忙的时候不做的事。
就像是：在PPS点击从来都不会想看的‘我可能不会爱你’然后思考了好久好久；帮房间进行大扫除，把箱子全清空，就坐在凌乱的、都是杂乱无章的书的地板看书看了好久好久，是橘子的书。
很疯狂，疯狂到我这星期去唱K？

我没事真的没事。
感恩哪，以为会哭红眼睛哭肿鼻子的时刻，有他们真正在安慰的吐嘈。
有时候说过的话，不要勉强去实践。
只要清楚知道一些说过的话，不要轻易说放弃。就像要有技术有勇气地开车到West End吃那边很好吃的Brunch；打工赚钱然后去台湾伦敦旅行；

每个人有他或她的故事，每个人喜欢说自己的故事给对方听。
但如果说把故事以已物易物方式交换，它就成了我们现在的，聊天。

Google search的时候搜到了这个句子。
我很喜欢聊天很喜欢交换故事；但要时刻警惕自己不要踩线，因为不是你愿意分享别人就愿意接受；而这个以己物易物的方式，也并不是每个人都受得起。
大家所给予的信任度不一样，要明白每个人都有自己的轴，自转时有些人会绕着你公转；而一些人只选择性地绕着别人来转。
反问一句：用脑筋来转，你累吗？

最近的夜晚都有绿茶的清新；装着淡淡绿茶的Mr Happy茶杯，心情也隐隐约约愉悦起来。
用了绿茶取代了咖啡，它的咖啡因似乎比咖啡还要强，我，上瘾了。
就算喝了两个茶包泡出来的绿茶，苦苦涩涩的，我还是睡得着。
别提了，我就是喜欢睡。

因为要收拾房间加上天气热的关系，把长长的刘海夹了起来；又换了副几年前戴的眼镜
把两个housemates吓到了对不起呀对不起。
我其实很宅女；给我足够的食物，只要有网络和手机，我能呆在家里一个月。
真的。事实是年尾我就将要面对这种生活了。加油吧！

最近用的都是中文，很想念很想念大家和时间赛跑还要想出一大堆优美漂亮的词汇来凑在一块儿变成一篇呕心沥血之文章。
那时候一个星期一篇的额度，确实让我的文笔进步不少。
两年了，生疏了。
莫名的惧怕与悲伤。
怕，到时候写不出充分表达我心情的文字；怕，在没有人明白我的时候，没有文字来了解我的想法。

恐惧中的三天。再等三天！

嘘！这是秘密！

当我一个人静静地离开默默地坐在一边的时候我真的没有emo
就只是需要一点空间来思考
真的没有emo
考试前夕总需要一点空间和书约会的

我喜欢这城市所有cafe所有restaurant所有地方，都有我们的痕迹我们的欢笑。喜欢大家这样你看我我看你，你笑，大家也跟着一起笑，然后我也笑了。

我喜欢相互失控的失态，我们消耗大量的体力来笑，同时消耗卡路里quota来吃。这样吃吃喝喝说说闹闹的，来证明我们的友谊。

就这样一点一点地建立。

从很久以前离别就被归纳成negative feeling；我挥一挥衣袖不带走一片云彩。

转眼间已经过了整两年，但感觉却仍清晰如昨，就像是当年的昨天，那一天的那一场考试。

那一种离愁伤感，就像磨咖啡豆一样，磨得越久，冲泡的咖啡越苦。

舍不得终究是舍不得，记得那一天盼得颈都长了就是没人到机场送我；要怪就班机是在brunei不是miri.

很不喜欢离别，所以当初断然拒绝爸妈想要把我送到Melbourne念书的决定。

因为在我实在舍不得在Brisbane的大家。不管你们相信与否。

「很sad呐明年就见不到你了。」

『没关系啊大家都是同样的一个城市，要见面很容易。』

霎那间的伤感。

什么时候还能在见面。

要keep我的msia number 啊。

什么时候我们一起在2020Cafe，把我们曾经在Brisbane的欢笑散播在那里。

思念太猖狂，一个冷不防

--给大家

想想你说过的话 其实我们不虚假
那就好了吧 这些够了呀

蓝又时 / / 秘密

失常又失态了，最近交了foundation中的倒数第二篇报告，兴奋得来说话不经大脑。

不止说话，whatsapp/texting中兴致勃勃地恢复，之后scroll back盯眼一看，不妙，似乎说错话了；更不妙的是，很不幸地那一行字的旁边已经出现的两个‘勾勾’(tick)

其实这也未尝不是一件好事，说话不经大脑，证明我说的话都是打至心底。

出其不意所开的玩笑；不经意透露的幽默。

很感谢主有这一位朋友，很特别的一位。

有这样一位朋友，让我从不同的角度看世界；以不同人的想法看事情；还有就是享受两个人之间的宁静。

这一位朋友，很喜欢同你说话。

你的耐心；你的包容，原谅我偶尔的叛逆任性。

虽然有时候你是直接地skip掉

念书念到快窒息的时候很想吃一笼一笼蒸好热腾腾的烧卖；牛肚；虾饺

从三个星期前盼得颈都长了；终于在两个星期前的这一天吃了一次。

其实点心们都没有很可口，我喜欢的是，大家围在一块儿转盘子你一言我一语地吃东西。

很快的，所有考试报告烦恼都忘了。说白了我就是喜欢吃。

嘘！这是秘密！

Espirit Friends + 22102012 MONDAY

33 degree Celsius this arvo, could feel the heat even with air-cond on.  the hot weather eventually triggered my sleepiness, especially when I didn't have enough sleep during this weekend, I felt like lying on my bed now.  BUT I CAN'T. Physics powerpoint due tomorrow, the last seminar in UQFY will be started soon.  Two more assignments due on the same day which is this Thursday, 2 research reports.  Two weeks left for final exams studies.  uhhuhhh, guess it's too late. 

lala.

To prevent myself from sleeping at this hour (i'm pretty sure if i sleep now i'll probably wake up around 9/10pm), I rather blog. hahaha

Mom and I love Espirit super super super darn much.  I love it because of the jeans jacket.  Mom loves it probably because of the handbags they sell. big enough for her i guess ahhaha.

I checked the house mailbox last week and surprisingly I got this!  Espirit friends Club, get 5% off every purchase.
Beside that!  I got a $15 dollar voucher!

Me super likey this blazer! It keeps me warm during winter tho. :)

I love the simplicity, in fact, it's big enough for my textbooks, lunchbox, as well as my lappie.  But not to torture it too much, I seldom bring it to school. haha

-Little updates-

I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a very very very busy week.  I decided to get everything done by tomorrow so that I can have a nice sleep on Wednesday!  Not spending wednesday night doing last minute work to complete both Physics and English Research Report which are due on Thursday.  I wanna treat myself well this time, USHHH! Let's work hard together and enjoy the wednesday night! :)

Yea I know my eyes are super duper small, especially when I'm extremely tired.  I can hardly open my eyes.

ISAT on this Friday 10.15am, perhaps I'm trying to escape from it few months ago, but I don't wanna leave any regrets in my life so ya, here I am, to accept the challenge.  To be, or not to be, all for God. Please pray for me thanks heaps!!!

Fact #1, when you almost complete an assignment, the excitement eventually overwhelms you and you don't feel tired/sleepy anymore.

YAYYERS.

Cheers.  :D for the super hot afternoon but windy night. love ya!

哈喽，这炎热的春天。

哈喽，这炎热的春天。

很想总结一下上个星期，很多很多东西可以share

当手碰到键盘，总是不能把一切想法变成文字；当话要说出口是，总是表达不了正确的feeling.

Yea, feeling is indescribable.

忙得不可开交，马不停蹄，日以继夜地做功课。嗯，想要表达的就是这样吗？

哈哈，很多很多的事有时候不用说出口，她可以用一句话就总结它们。

很白痴的我是最近才发现到facebook video calling也可以取代skype.

毕竟skype总是appear offline.

『eh有一个问题我一直很想问你。skype是来干嘛的？』
「来communicate啊」
『哦，来communicate啊，那你每一次都appear off你和电脑communicate』

「没事，他们呢都知道我在网络的另一端的。不用on。」

是呀，他们都知道的。

可是呀，为什么现在我都put online了呢？

我不知道。

除了april fool 我还庆祝了october fool. 

Happy october fool!  第一个被骗的还是我们家的蔡大妹。

不知接下来的november会不会有人被fool? :p

星期四的早晨，很早很早地就起来面对了一个重要的决定。

有个问题纠结了很久很久，最后上个星期就放胆去做，想也没想。

纯粹是不要让自己留下遗憾，将来老了后悔呀。

真切地希望，那不是一个错误的决定. :)

妈妈曾经说过，所谓短裤的长度应该要到膝盖；爸爸说，所谓长裤就是要长不能是低腰的。
我说，那我穿高腰的长裤好了。

妹妹说，要是爸妈看到我穿成这样，我肯定会被狠骂一顿。
没关系，他们看不到。
其实，天下的父母都是一样的。

Oiishii Sushi Bar

This is, again, a post about food. ahaha, i've been hunting for food all over the holidays, since my family is here, we went to Oishii Sushi Bar for our lunch.  We were lost cos we didn't know the exact address, only knew that it's somewhere at Sunnybank Hills.  Anyway, Thank God we found the way there. :D  Brother was so excited because he likes Japanese food.

This brightened up our day.  Loving mom's tops, necklace, as well as her handbag.

 Garlic Chicken Rice

 Chicken Curry Rice, this is so so so yummmy.

 Dad's favourite, Grilled Eel. not too bad, but a little bit too sweet. :S

 And and and! the sashimi set! OMGGGGG I will never say NO to salmon. :D

 Can you hear the POP sound in your mouth. :P

Temple Run

 Tempura Udon! YUM.

Spider Roll.  Softshell crab!

Finally went to Oishii Sushi Bar with family!  I've been craving for the sushi there since the beginning of the year because my friend recommended this restaurant.  I'll definitely visit it again with sister since both of us like it very much, especially the spider roll.

P/s seven days. Yes, seven days to go. JIAYOU!

Here's my drawer!

Tadaaa, again, I wanna welcome Wednesday!  I can't emphasis enough how I love Wednesday more than Friday.  AHA.  

I looked a bit twitchy today but I was just too tired. :/ And got really stressed out facing exams and assignments, in fact, disciplinary needed, so I told myself to get away from PPS dramas and must complete my physics report by tonight.  Yes, bring it on!

Back to the topic, ahahaha, have a peek inside my drawer:

SNACKS!  I love Arnotts, my favourite biscuits!

Anyway, today I'm gonna introduce RED ROCK!  Which is my family's favourite brand on potato chips.

P/s, eating junk food isn't good for health.

I went to Wollies for groceries shopping this evening and discovered this really nice snakcs.

It's Rice Crisps, Sour Cream and Chives flavoured.  It tastes exactly like the snacks that we eat during childhood in Malaysia!

 Snacking while doing assignments. :p

Noted that it's rice crisps not potato chips!  Less guilt I reckoned. :D

 Ending this post with Arnotts' family. AHAHAHA. 

Ciao~  Four weeks, yes, four weeks to go.  Back to work~

Happy birthday SHERYL!

Before I wrote this post, I told you, I gonna do something that makes you cry.  so you better cry out of joy ya. hahaa

A birthday card for you which arrived on time!  Happy birthday!

It was 7 years ago...

In 2005, I met someone who is 'important' to me ( a bit guilty to say this, but nvm).

When we were both 11 years old, tadadaaaaaa *drum rolls*

We become friends! 

Those days when we always had our lunch together; copying each other definitions for chinese characters; studying hard; talking crap...

and the most memorable one is when I visited you at the canteen to get the super big and cheap fried chicken wings, you always got offers, because you were the prefect. AHA.

so it's you who fed me well!

 Ya right, everyone was like so disappointed graduating from primary school and you seemed to be the happiest girl.  Can't wait to go to high school huh?!

Unfortunately, we were not in the same class in the beginning of 2007, but we still kept in touch. I could always spot your 'clumsy' body climbing the stairs to meet me at the top floor. :P
Thank God we got together again and started our high school journey, long long one.

-And we used to cover ourselves by using the blue curtains in our classroom, which were so darn dirty and smelly, but who cares.-

No wonder la you had so many pimples during Form One. :p

Form Two, the most enjoyable year!  Couldn't remember what had actually happened which brought us apart but nevermind, we were brought together again. ahahaha.

Form Three! Everything PMR, sweetest text messages.

Form Four, some misunderstandings again.  Well, our friendship still sails. Appreciated those little mistakes which stabilize our friendship. :D

Your face, always that 'qian da'

and yea right your hair is nice. 

'NICE' :p

 The girl who can cook well but never cook for me before.

:/

Lastly!  Happy birthday my dear SHERYL CHAI! 

You deserve this post and I deserve your tears pls pls pls HAHAHAHAHA

Happy birthday, an eighteenth girl, your life will be no doubt very wonderful.

We seldom whatsapp seldom chat but I know, I really know, you miss me lots.  *Nah i'm being a little thick face here*

And I miss you heaps as well.  Can't emphasis enough how much I miss you.

Just wish you all the best.

in EVERYTHING.

YES I MEAN EVERYTHING!!!!

I X YOU

(p/s the X which ever brought me into troubles. please don't laugh)

Youth Sunday 14102012

How ya going!

I'm pretty good, telling myself it's just 5 more weeks to go. 5 more weeks to the holidays.  Foundation Year has been a tough year for me so far, no more honeymoon year, like what I'd done in high school last year.  I'm in the progress of learning how to be independent, not always relying on teachers for drafts.  One of the most distinct differences is that teachers in high school will check your first draft (of course), and also your second.. third until teachers are satisfied.  :/  Thank God I have uni friends who are willing to help out, checking my assignment. :D thanks here!

Okay, another week is coming.  We had Youth Sunday this morning and it was really really awesome!  

 Group photo! Young Adults Fellowship, English Methodist Youth Fellowship and Chinese Methodist Youth Fellowship! 

 CMYF! Women in red and men in checkers! aha

Live the life that please God.  Follow Jesus whatever it takes.

Entering the critical weeks.  Assignments, research tasks, exams are just around the corner.  I don't feel my stress, I really don't.  :/

anyways, back to studies.  Jiayou! :)

拍拍手，十八就是要不一样

晚上十点十一分。好像困了。你在干嘛？
我在黑漆漆的房里看着[快乐大本营]，很想让自己睡着，可是越笑越大声，睡不着了。
半夜在看搞笑的综艺节目，看着听着都是无聊的笑话，但是可以笑得开怀。

其实我的老师们很贴心。

『Hi Clare. Are you okay?』
「Yep」干笑了几下。
『So... How's your work going.』
『Ohh, you've done!』
「Yeaa, but....」噼里啪啦，成功地转移了话题

那一刻才知道原来这半年也过得很惊险。
以后的日子也要脚步蹒跚地给它走过去，即使再艰苦也要显得很轻松，对，我就是要面子。
很长很长的whatsapp conversation，很深很深的感触，一下子就在巴士上笑了。
隔壁的外国大叔还很疑惑地对着我傻笑，我也对着他蠢蠢地笑。
我很潇洒地说了一声'have a nice day'就走了。

对呀，have a nice day，对于生活中所增添的色彩，喜欢地就去欣赏，不喜欢的，就用喜欢的去遮盖它们。

『怎么把黑色遮掉啊？』
「我喜欢黑色啊，你应该问，要用什么把我喜欢的黑色遮掉。应该没有这个可能吧？」

啊哈。我的逻辑啊有时候我也不明白。

放学走路回家，坚持不开车。
那个恶毒的太阳散发着负能量，很想直视它说：哼我擦了防晒霜，你拿我怎么着？
事实上防晒霜只防紫外线，不保证不会晒黑。
而我很理所当然地变成了黑人，哦不，tan。我又很tan的皮肤。
羡慕吧。

突然发现我并不能在这里把所有想说的东西说出来，因为人的眼人的脑人的口。
那一头一个private blog  http://okiedokielalala.blogspot.com.au/，我不介意开放给一些人。
send me email. :)

其实我有你们你们大家，stay neutral，be neutral。

拍拍手，我又长大了。
果然十八岁，就是要不一样的吧？

Marco Polo Dining Bar

My family came to Brisbane for mid-semester two holidays last week! They just went back yesterday morning and I already miss them heapssss. :( anyhow, gonna stay focus and bia for the last term.

Because I had trip with friends to Coffs Harbour (will update when I got those photos) during the long weekend, I couldn't have mooncake celebration with them, so dad brought us dinner on Friday night, the night before I left.  We had our dinner at Marco Polo Dining Bar.  It is in Treasury Casino.  It's a known fact that children under 18 years old can't enter the casino, so the whole dinner session we were kind of 'monitored' by the manager.  Even when I wanted to go to washroom, which is outside of the restaurant but part of the casino areas, I need to bring my passport with me.  -.-  

 The menu.  Live seafood! But we didn't have that for dinner, save it for the dinner when I am back to SI. :P

 random shot by sis. wine anyone?

 Guess what's that?

BUTTER!

The thing that came into my mind at first was candle. ><"

 The bread rolls were really awesome. Soft, with fragrance, sesame seeds.

 To add to that, they were served when they were still hot!

See how the butter melted?  Aww

 I ate half of it. Favourite bread rolls!

 

Entree:  Oysters.

My dad and my all-time-favourite.

The oysters were too small and the thai sauce didn't taste good.  The sourness covered the freshness of the oysters when you put into your mouth.

(Talking crap, anyway, I'm pro enough right? :p)

 Wonton in chicken broth.

All of us love this soup.  Three wontons in every single serve.  The broth tastes really well, as in you can feel like no ajinomoto added in it and purely chicken!

The roasted pork with bak-choy.

THIS IS AWESOME.  there seems like lots of fats on the pork, but trust me, have a bite and there are all tender meat. 

 Tofu with stir-fry vegetables.

Didn't taste on the tofu cos my brother had most of it (he's a tofu-lover)

According to him, it's nice.  Well, all tofu tastes nice to him.

 The main dishes!  Peking duck!

Ohmygooosh this was so good.  However the portion was a bit small for my family.

This is the whole duck, and when the waiter served this dishes, 

'Is this the whole duck?' I asked.

Well, just to re-confirm. :P

 Not to forget the dessert!  Handmade chocolates.

Mint dark choc, raspberry white choc, white on white choc, pure dark choc, cheery-mint choc and milk choc.

Love the pure dark choc and the cherry mint choc.  They didn't taste that sweet.

So yeah, that's our mooncake festival celebration, followed by a little bit of shopping. YES along Queen Street again. 

Anyway, worth a go when there's special occasions on.  To be frank, it's more suitable for couples ahaaaha, due to the romantic atmosphere.  

Okiess, enjoy your Friday and the coming weekend after the long break!  Everyone who's studying, all the best in the last term of the year!  those working, feel your passion on working!  God bless :D 

Ciao~