Tuesday, July 20, 2010

最近的日子


Ahh.最近过得还蛮开心的,因为我把烦恼都丢掉了。其实烦恼大都是自找的吧,把东西想得简单些,做人也做得简单一点。当然,心情也会更简单,简单得我只想要的那一种-开心的。

有人说这样只是自欺欺人,逃避现实。是没错啊,逃避现实。我就是喜欢这样你管我啊。我的人生我自己规划自己操控。无谓人的一些冷讽热噪对我来说只是蚊子在耳边嗡嗡响。有时候还蛮讨厌这种嗡嗡的声音。去过自己的生活啦,管东管西,干脆去管海边啦。

-以上皆不是本人的经历,打个比方罢了。-

说真的我有时候是喜欢逃避现实。选择性地去面对自己满意的现实。也没多少现实是美好的。至少我把它们的格式转换了。同样的一张塔罗牌,正反都代表不同的意思。至于我要如何去选择,那真的是我的选择。

真正地忙碌了起来,每天都要想着明天该把哪些东西完成,该做些什么东西。一张清单列下来的东西可不少。到底我几时才能过回以前的日子呀?

常识比赛选拔赛,本来是打算弃权了。可是想想这或许是种不负责任的行为吧。所以就以玩玩的心态去选拔赛。

而我,大笑了。

多久没这样好好地放开怀在课室里面对老师咧开嘴哈哈大笑起来了?每天回到班上就是赶功课。真的好久没时间这样好好地笑笑。

大笑到脸红,泪流。一直压抑却不断爆发的那种笑。

显而易见,我们喜欢的都是八卦,明星的花边新闻。八卦是人的天性,别在骂别人八婆八公了啦。


也许你从来都没信任过我,也许我也不在乎了。问题久了我也懒得去想了,但我还是超不喜欢你ignore我。
我告诉我自己,我都把你们排在第一顺位。千万不要让你的位子滑落。这个,我可不担保。


我们是一个team的。听到这句话真的很感动。曾几何时我们素未谋面会变成一个大家庭?
珍惜这短短的一年,满满的回忆。

幸不幸福都是自己决定的。凝住幸福的方法,就是感受幸福。

Thursday, July 8, 2010

上课

最近就是忙忙忙,可以整天没上课,也可以半天没上课。

今天终于好好待在班上一个上午,上了数学物理历史课。坐在靠窗的位子,那里的视野很好,蓝天白云,高耸的建筑物。和朋友们研究着云,看着云的飘动,形状的变化......胡乱地跟朋友幻想,疯疯癫癫地说着我脑海中幻想着十年后的故事,他们无奈又好笑地看着我。还有就是专心地上课,看着白板,看着老师。

原来,上课也有有趣的一面。

说真的,上课时我可以装成很专心听课的样子,其实我的思绪却飘得远远的。觉得我的听觉大概还不错吧,发白日梦的当儿,若听到有兴趣的事情时,我的思绪会自动地飘回课堂上。很少会直接趴下来睡觉,不是因为不敢,而是趴着睡觉很辛苦,会扭到颈项耶。

注意上课时每个人的小动作,是我奇怪的习惯。坐在课室后面,可以看到的东西很多很多。哈哈,谁在偷吃东西我都知道。


原来我这么喜欢上课呀。

=)

又下雨了。
她很喜欢跟我报告一些有的没的的事情,其实对我都蛮重要的。所剩的这几个月时间,希望你那时所谓的口头承诺会兑现。不容易满足是人的本性,一步步走来,都代表着每个奇迹。

miracles,对就是奇迹。
希望这奇迹会发生,一直发生。

Monday, July 5, 2010

im stubborn stupid but im happy.

im totally blur with the chemistry. i was not at class last week for three days. THREE days! haha.

anyway, today was a great dayy! i mean that, really mean that. it was the time problems, work problems and whatever! you will never know what im saying right?

haha... great day. intuition tells me it's a great day. ;D

im stubborn stupid but im happy.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

band competition. CHMBB rocks to the MAX!

the event-brass band competition 2010 zon miri-bintulu was finally ended. actually our department was having a special job. but then, because of some reasons we became the most free one. ;D

then we went to teacher's office. suffering! we hate tally, but after the "lecture", we decided to love it. well, finally our speed increased. tee-hee. drawing tally and doing the statistics. actually we enjoyed the time. we chatted about everything and teased each other.

we were having fun today. tiring. but really happy.

back to the topic. our school band is just... GREAT! they deserved it. =) enjoy watching other school band performance too! we love shouting and clapping! (others may think we are kixiao)

=) a nice day. duhh! im not going to class again tomorrow. except chinese lessons. =) gonna finish the thinggie asap. jiayou!

hey jiayou! we can do it! =}

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

sixteen.

thanks to all my fren, for giving me such a MEMORABLE b'day.

it was happy, it was suprised. anyway, thanks.
i dun hav the time to write a long post. so, just a short update.

the special bank box. the cuuteee dragonfly. the korea thinggie. the special b'day card.and all the things. thanks. especially the b'day notebook. loving it while hating it.

;D anyway. thanks for the advice too. love u all.

bye. happy birthday to me! sweet sixteen. im not gonna to forget today.


Thursday, June 24, 2010

tiring days.

tired.

i stayed back in the afternoon everyday for this week. reached home around 5pm, took bath then sleep. or went tuition. tiring days. but i love it.
emm, today was a memorable one. i stayed back till 5.45pm. after KM then went back to class, help decorating the class. spider web. bloody eyes. cacat hands. and ghost! oh ya, witch too. ;D wait and see ya..
almost the whole day i didnt stay at class. helping puan zakinah at kh room. ewww, i hate red onions. hate it! tears spurt out when im "handling" them. got a plate of fried mihun and a can of cola as a thanks gift. errr, i hate cola too.

so i've got all my test papers. improved. but still got rooms for improvements. i'll try my best until i got A in my bio. maintain the Grade A in chemistry and physics. add maths, no more carelessness! it is a deal.

deal. i deal with myself again. never care about the person who never respect you. haih.. but i know after a while i will break my promise. i always do that.

it is the last day. LAST!

Monday, June 21, 2010

first day of the new semester

it's the first day of the new semester!
i woke up early in the morning after the alarm rang for half an hour. ;D i hate wake up early. x.x

went morning duty
back to class
shouting when i saw someone cut her hair
chit chatting with the gang
got the test papers
chit chatting about out childhood (the butterfly hairclips)
and then lunch
watched mr yong rotan ppl. x.x it's so painful.

it was the day of the new semester. quite boring. oh, i still slept for half an hour. i guess so. im too tired!!!

gonna sleep now. it is 6.20pm right now and im going to sleep! sleep. duhh.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

hieh.

*DRUM.

hey one more days! are we going to do nilam? i thought upper form students don't do nilam? yiih. yet i just copied from my previous form one two three nilam. that's all. hehe. i just remembered that i havent done my chemistry peka. wooow. haih. give up?

one more days to get the test papers. hoo-ahh, the terrible marks? NO!
gonna finish the so-called-job next week. MUST! this is the target for us. ;D yeah, jiayou. yeeerrr, someone's trying to look after us. make sure we dont snake. hieh.

this morning was the spotcheck training. it was indeed a "memorable" one.. haha, but we really learnt a lot. ;D

i just finish tidying my desk. clean and tidy! =D a new start for the new semester!

movies movies. last movies for this holidays. so bye.
two more days to go. wphew...

attended the Bsmm training camp for four days. im sorry i couldn't help out at the last day. XO it was a nice memories. with the members and ajks. yaaah, i love these four days although it was tired.

i still have three bio peka(s), six chapters in maths workbook, two chapters in sejarah workbook. ohya, two chinese newspaper reports. lots of homework right? before this i got twelve bio peka(s) and i've done nine! yeappee.

love this song.郭静 - 聊天
这是第几天 这一座城市每天在下雪
彷彿在嘲笑我 现在的心很冬天
这是第几遍 你口中的快乐要我成全
你没点头说抱歉 我却回首说再见
最后 我们聊着天
我们约在当年 你表白的咖啡店
真的可惜了昨天 当时拍的好多照片
一天累积成一年
我们爱的熟练 现在都变成纪念
若有机会再聊天 我的心会藏很远
这是第几天 这一座城市每天在下雪
彷彿在嘲笑我 现在的心很冬天
这是第几遍 你口中的快乐要我成全
你没点头说抱歉 我却回首说再见
最后 我们聊着天
我们约在当年 你表白的咖啡店
真的可惜了昨天 当时拍的好多照片
一天累积成一年
我们爱的熟练 现在都变成纪念
若有机会再聊天 我的心会藏很远
最后 我们聊着天
我们约在当年 你表白的咖啡店
真的可惜了昨天 当时拍的好多照片
一天累积成一年
我们爱的熟练 现在都变成纪念
若有机会再聊天 我的心会藏很远
朋友简单的聊天 希望会有那一天

;D gonna iron my uniform now. bye.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

a short update.

i haven't finish my homework. yet there's one more week to go.

whew, i felt too glad that i didnt make the decide to meet you today. yish. i had a good tight sleep last night and a rest today. I had no transport to go school so cant help out. >< sorry.

by the way, i gonna keep the dvd player soon. Otherwise i wont do my homework! i just finished watching autumn's concerto and currently addicted to vanness wu. wowooowww, maybe next month i'll be addicted to Edward(Robert Pattinson) AGAIN. The twilight series-ECLIPSE will be out soon. ;D i prefer to buy dvd instead of watching in the cinema.

i had the worst experience in cinema last Thursday. urh. We're watching Karate Kids and it was definitely NICE. but I was sitting at the second row. Somehow after a while i felt like wanna vomit. So i slept for 15 minutes and tried my best to get used of the loud LOUD sound effect.



just a short update. gonna play facebook to the MAX. ;D

cool.
phew. im tired.

when we're talking can you please pay attention. instead of looking around.
uh oh. FREE from anger please. ya, im trying my best.

yesh. i told you it was really tiring to try and achieve something that can only be dreams. DREAMS. you are only a dream kays? nothing important. dont think that you are v v v important in their heart. urh.

im not angry. not angry not angry.

that's the reason. ;D

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

♥ today.

♥ today. that's all.
oh ya, and SMILE.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

whew

whew. do i have lots of things to do? uh-oh.
i tried to do my bio practical experiments. just copy copy and copy. i just wondering why our teacher taught so fast, HIGH SPEED, and actually i didnt really get what she said. geee... She taught till chapter six and after holidays, we gonna do the chapter 4 experiments. yiih. I hate doing experiments, especially when you know you will fail it, the conclusion must be-the hypothesis is not accepted. eww. haiya, our group members' fault? We are group 3, Esther, Rika, Ian, Jeffu, Esther.T and me! XO. not our fault. Tee-hee.

Holidays. The first week. The fifth days.

HOW AM I GOING TO SPEND MY HOLIDAYS?! tell me tell me!
im quite free on the first two weeks.
online, facebook, msn, text msg. and sometimes go to school to complete my job. that's all.
oh ya, piano practice. Exams soon.T.T

err, my schedule is not so full, compared to Brass Band members. ;D jiayou to all myy BB friends.
every morning. It's hard for me to wake up early kay. 4am, the earliest. 9am, the latest.
we should get enough sleep to keep our body healthy always.
(sleep late and wake up late isn't a good way to lead a healthy life.)
im still drowsy with sleep currently. ><

Things i should do for my holidays: TIME IS PRECIOUS!!! XOXO
  • Piano practice. Scales, the three pieces and Aural.
  • girls outing. ( i think my mum will say NO)
  • library, BOOKS! seba's books. (=
  • play online games, heyy it was the first time i played online games. small kids games but it's really very funny.
  • Autumn's Concerto
overall, DO SOMETHING WORTH REMEMBERING, that's all, enough.

What looks obvious in hindsight was not at all obvious at the time. Believe is the most important elements in IT.(it?) Im a complete ignoramus in it. So, best wishes for you and you and you. All of you. yeeh, of course Me too.

What's my outlook on holidays? Sleep, eat, play.
Im enjoying.

Monday, May 31, 2010

midst.

for being such a IDIOT.
if it's just fun
then i tell you it is not funny.

the memories are just
MIDST

disappear
a.s.a.p

the limit.


It was the third day of holidays. Oh gosh, it was really boring. No girls shopping, no texting, no lots of drama. Somehow the messages I received during exams are more than those I received now.

I spent the lunch time watching xia yi zhan xing fu. I’m currently addicted to Vanness Wu, instead of the drama. ;D *high 5 sheryl. Missu missu.

I gonna find something to do from tomorrow onwards.

“Practise ur piano pieces and scale please!”

Whew, piano test is just around the corner, right at the end of June. Oh My God. My three pieces are just “ma ma dei”(eng: not so ok). Aural test, it will be absolutely-F.A.I.L. Since I never practice scales appregios before this…. It’s really a tough job for me to practise it for three times per day. It’s my target. Three times per day. I must do it. I cant fail la… the registration fee is kinda expensive okay?

Hey, I found that when a person is angry, he or she cant just diam diam. So I felt so SHUANG after scolding those people. For this time, I will not apologize. It’s you two fault. You and you are incorrigible liar.

LIAR.

Do best friends tell lies? Not only one lie, there were lots of lies. I thought firm friends didn’t do this. So we are not firm friends. We are friends. XO.

I preferred to watch movies, INSTEAD OF SCOLDING PEOPLE THAT NEVER KNOW WHERE THEY WRONG AT AND KEPT SAYING SORRY. Sorry no cure. But I always told you that it heals. Ya, it heals, I WILL NOT care for you anymore. AT LEAST, there is no longer the care I gave before. Maybe you didn’t appreciate it before. 我不认为我本身很好但至少我对他们真的是用了真心。

You thought I’m stupid? Maybe i am really a stupid friend for you. but everything has the limit. even spring has the elastic limit.(ahha) i cant be sure that i will always be good or how, everyone has his or her own perangai.

如果哪一天发现原来变革是这么容易,我不敢担保我会做出什么事来。
人总会在极限中发现自己的潜能,我找到了我跟你说,就是破口大骂。
phew, 舒畅。

给一个朋友的话:
我知道你面对了一些问题,你不想说我也不逼你吧。只希望,我们开心就好。
或许我们的问题根源都一样。所以开心吧,人家开开心心没有理由我们不开心。这太不值得了。
对不对?加油!

Phew, don’t wanna talk about it anymore. I hate this. Apparently I’m gonna get used of the lie(s). YIIH. What will ensue from this? See ya.

Whatever?

It is 2010.5.30 10:19pm
Lunar calendar 4.17   Alarm OFF.
Sunday     Temp 31°C

Somes are being so “childish”. XD like two small kids fighting for toys.
p/s Likim, do you know who’s these two small kids.? ERHERM

stop thinking of that, although being their friends really felt good. I know I still have lots of loving and caring friends, who never tell so MUCH lies on me.
I love all of you. [likim: dun shy]



Saturday, May 29, 2010

幼稚

哎呀,不要说很闷因为忙碌的日子即将开始.

难得可以待在家里,累的时候倒在床上,闷的时候看看书,打通电话找人聊天..再不然就到屋子后面拔草喂蚊子,还有应付老妈的碎碎念.

只是,这样的生活充实吗?

哦对了还忘了一大堆的功课,我想我还是和以前一样,到了最后一天才会死命赶,一边骂着为啥这么多功课..其实是自己拖到最后才做不能怪别人吧.

今天试图让朋友冷静,其实自己也好像也冷静不下来..其实人家都没说过她是自己的朋友,一切都只是自己的心甘情愿和愚蠢.那样很好玩哦?是呀对她来说也许很好玩.她期待我要有什么反应吗?安抚朋友的当儿自己也想了很多.

幼稚.

就是这样的.到时候下不了台的时候该怎么办呢.俄哦.

im currently addicted to 下一站幸福. VANNESS WU are really handsome. im loving him.
The Twilight Saga: Eclipse movie will be coming soon, yeah, right at the end of june. oh yea, im loving robert pattinson too.


im trying not to think about the nonsense thing le. i just wondering why you want to say like that. just to "hien". oh gosh. hien la, dont hien to me. for what i care is, i treat you as my friend but you never said that u are my friend. NEVER EVER SINCE.

请不要对号入坐,现在喜欢这样做的人很多,actually自己也是这样的人.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

两个星期的考试我偷偷换了位子,刚好冷气狂吹得位子啊。考试考到一半双手会麻掉,困了可以拿来冰脸让自己清醒。尤其是在考physics bio chemistry这几科的这几天根本是在跟时间赛跑。感觉上题目好像都做不完的那种。

最气人的就是essay questions. ESSAY还没关系,我接受的了。重点是那个"ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS",我做完了两题才看到。BIO让我真真正正体会到绝望是怎么样的感觉。


老妈终于肯给我看下一站幸福了.im outdated. ahhaaa.
whatever. he's so handsome. =D

Monday, May 24, 2010

things happened suddenly. urh.
whatever im not going to bother it anymore. should i delete it first? xD just a small case dont worry. ahha

btw the air con, duh. i hate air cond now!
exams in upper form=write, write and WRITE!
one blue pen for a week.

im wondering why there are so so so many forward msg.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

i found a special way to memorize lothar meyer's curve? ;D credits to Likim. her copyrights.
haha

anyway chemistry is kinda nice or interesting if you put your whole heart on the subject, read it slowly, and digest it. XD
i found that texting can prevent me from falling asleep! Geee... thanks to the girl who msg with me last night. She's just so so so funny, but caring. XD a nice friend.

uh-oh. study!

p/s heard that band members still need to parade this afternoon for miri city day! jiayou ba...in both parade and exams.

=) two more days to go.

Friday, May 21, 2010

终于考试告了一段落
还有五科XD

这次的考试还蛮不错的
(到时候拿到成绩就不这么想了)
因为有些人没有考所以位子空了许多
偷偷地换了位=)终于不用面对墙壁了视野好了许多

唯一不爽的就是做旁边那个一直jio我

生活中的美
认真地感受生活就是一种美

所以呢我不予置评只希望你加油就好