Itching and swelling of my body, the consequences of eating too many crabs.  I spent two hours to finish eating them.  How many crabs did I eat?! Figure it out yourself.
Not feeling well. D:

Anyway, those friends who are going to sit for PMR and SPM trial two, good luck!  Best wishes from miles away.  Wish you all the best and go for it! =)

Short Update

Fighting with brother and sisters on the bed.  It was so tiring.
I'm going back to brissie soon.  Two more sleeps in SI then I gonna leave. D:  Still can't believe that I have been there for almost one year.  And still can't speak english fluently. Term Four is coming.  A busy term without a doubt.  Going for a camp on the second week of Term Four.  I'm looking forward for the whole new experience! :D

Talking about next year, my bff is still thinking whether to go for UQFY or not.  I hope she does.  I need close friends here.  yes, you can make new friends and become best friends here, but it's very hard to forget your old best friends.  We are of a crazy gang!  But part of the crazy gang will be studying at KL next year.
Who knows I'll meet many of my good friends during the orientation of UQFY?  That will be great :)

Sadly I'll be in Malaysia for one month only.  And woi! Royal Brunei cancels the flight from Brisbane to Brunei.  So much inconvinience.  Will be using emirates airline, lucky that the luggage allowance is 30 kilos.  But I need to buy 30 kilos for AirAsia flight back to Miri.  So... Royal Brunei is still the best, I can eat escapade sushi lagi pun!

Anyway, i gain weight.  So KNS.  So KNS.  sien. T.T

优良血统

下午两母女蹲在厨房洗菜。
老妈说：会做家务的女孩子男人是不可以随随便便看不起的。
我说啊，男人要是看不起女人就别叫妈妈。

老妈还说以后男朋友要找个优良血统的。-.-这话儿值得考虑. LOL
我回答说：放心吧老妈只要不吸烟不赌钱不嫖没隐疾就是优良血统了。XD
 说真的我看起来很容易被骗；但是当你在骗我的时候我可能已经在算计怎么回击。siao我只是看起来容易被骗。

比如说：那个不知名人士今天就骗了我一块钱。
那我就踢你的店门。

老实说因为我的弟弟有我这个姐姐所以算是优良血统。
别错过这个优良血统啊。;p

两只脚走路的大象

“你是不是看见什么不该看的东西？”
“对呀我每天都看见不该看的东西。一只用两只脚走路的大象。“

我用了三秒钟才反应过来。 KNS

烦什么烦

我其实很快乐，有口饭吃有瓦遮头有家人有朋友，真的其实我很快乐。
有时候忧伤起来我很抱歉
是不是容易付出就容易受伤；不用回答，至少有句歌词是这么说的。哪首歌儿我忘了

想太多，白头发太多，该烦些什么呢？ 既来之则安之
太多的顾虑，才17岁的小丫头老妈说，烦什么烦。
 我说明年18岁了不小了大丫头了。

不喜欢戴耳机，把两只耳朵都塞了感觉自己与世界隔绝了。
不喜欢孤独也不喜欢寂寞
今晚我想孤独寂寞一下，看着金鹰独播剧场的内地剧。
好凄美的爱情故事；好可怜的结局
时差很讨厌，等呀等的。我好像也不睏了。

三年前重复播着的歌，如果我变成回忆，总觉得tank是因为New Moon这部电影才唱的。
歌词的内容几乎是在Edward的心情写照；那时和某个朋友特别喜欢他，近乎疯狂的地步。
两个人在PMR前超长加时补习班的时候听着同一首歌；在PMR前夕重播着。
如果我变成回忆，退出了这场生命，留下你错愕哭泣我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
话说Twilight系列最后一集在十二月上映，想说如果把这首歌换成英文版应该不错。
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记
很耐心地等你的这一句话，我还在等着。

A date with crabs!

OH YES.  My father bought three crabs for 190SBD.  So it's only approximately RM70.  They are extremely big and I think I can't find these crabs with this price in Miri.  NEVER.

"HoChiak la!"  I spent two hours sitting at the dining table to finish eating my crabs.  My parents and sisters gave me one big crab as I can't have it in australia.  (too expensive)  Oh my god my mouth exercised a lot just now.  As you can see from the photos, the background went from daytime, to sunset, then night time. LOL

#1

#2

#3

#4

#5

#1  The comparison of size between my mom's spec with one of the crabs.
#2  I'm brave enough to hold that crab! After its death apparently. -.-
#3  Yum Yum.  This was only the first plate.  Second plate was still in the wok when we had the first plate.
#4  I think he should exercise! LOL
#5  The end.

I'm super tired after the battle .. oops, the date with crabs. HAHA.
oh yea.  Another target, my father's sour sea cucumber!  i'm so addicted to seafood. :)

Going back to aussie in seven days time.  Term Four is just around the corner!  I have my Year 11 camp on the second week of term four.  Seriously can't wait for it.  The second camp in my life.  But then I am still very sad because I miss the chance of joining Camp CH.  THE BEST CAMP EVER!
and I'll never have the opportunity to get involved. :(  Too old.

Anyway, gonna off for assignment! Chiong ah. Last term, then say bye bye to high school oh yeah...

一念执着

其实我很容易相信一个人
也其实让我相信一个人没那么简单

很容易随波逐流，因为不想硬碰硬
行动上或许不执着，心里知道，就顺顺他吧说说罢了，自己的想法自己知道就好
有人说这好看；好，我去看，就算不好看我也会说还好吧，蛮好看的。

知道的，人喜欢说谎，也一直称那为善意的谎言。

因为一个朋友，因为一套中国大陆电视剧，因为里头的吴奇隆，我到小说网看了一部小说。
 

“最重要的是我一面渴望着有人能诚心诚意的对我，可我又不相信这个宫廷里会有这样的人，如果我不能相信，那我的心总是无法真正敞开，去接纳他。也许我太懦弱，太害怕伤害，我不能象敏敏那样自己先付出，去争取，我总是被动地等着对方付出，等着对方一点点让我相信，然后我才有可能打开我的心，慢慢喜欢上他。”

她说她看得哭了；我没哭，因为我跳着看得，太心急太心急，想知道他们的结局。
太心急得来就是失望，他们没在一起。那时候很想哭，却没哭出来。也许，我该从头开始看，一字一字地读。
一直以来只有蝴蝶的书能让我流泪；桐华的呢？我也很想知道。

从来没跟我最好的朋友说我相信你，因为我们是知道的。
法律上口头承诺也是有法律效应的，呵，有人说句开玩笑你也只能一笑置之。
因为我们不是法官不是律师不是被告更不是原告，何必过度认真。
有些事由不得我们拒绝。

三个月了好的吧我认输了。
我没时间硬撑下去；有些事由不得我们拒绝。

重复播着胡歌和阿兰   一念执着

一眼之念 一念执着
注定就此 飞蛾扑火
明知是祸 为何还不知所措

突然发现，胡歌的歌很好听 

The little chef.

#1

#2

#3

#4

#5

The first day back in SI, helped my little brother to make siu mai. 
Eh wei, my products were much more better than his.  They were all in my tummy now. AHAA.

#1 I seriously miss him.  HAHA. not only my brother, all of my family members!
#2 When we were competing.  Making siu mai competition!
#3 Fighting after the competition.  He said i shouldn't help him, cos i didn't make proper siu mai.  Proper siu mai in his term: Beautiful siu mai.
#4 Experienced 9 degree Celsius and then 31 degree celsius.  This was hard.  My face was red and my sisters thought I did make up.  LOL i didn't!

p/s  Used an hour to upload these photos.  The internet line sucks.  Brisbane's internet line is the most efficient compared to Miri streamyx and the line here!
Uhhhh!

Terlalu istimewa

Malay song is so great.  I mean, this song is nice, super nice, super duper nice.  It was one of the song in orientation 2010.  And my first time to sing a malay song, besides negaraku and ibu pertiwiku la. HAHA.

Terlalu istimewa

Happy Mid Autumn Festival

*Growl.
Tomorrow is the last day of my exams.  Term Three.  The End.
Gained weight because of exams.  Normally people lose weight easily because of stress and pressure.  Kns.  Noted that lack of sleep will help you to gain weight! Lol.
The numbers on the scale, optical illusion i supposed. la la la.

Three more sleeps then I will leave.  Sisters and brother are planning something for me.  Hope it's not a trick. which they use to do on me.
But who cares?  I am with my family. <3

Anyway, 中秋节快了！

月亮代表我的心，外国的月亮没那么圆。
:D

Cheers.

那个人

 

生命里有个人，找到了就不会那么轻易地换。

或者说，找到了就再也不想换了。

Now playing: 郭静《嫁妆》

你过得好吗？凌晨4.30 大马时间2.30，有股冲动拨电话给你。

春天降临飘来花香

感觉很别扭的title. 太诗情画意了。
挥别冬天啦，我的第一个春天。
三个月，要好好地过；在夏天离开这儿，回到那儿更是炎热的天气。
but who cares? 有你们就好！

感觉这个term是浑浑噩噩地过，有种预感，我的report card上会出现C这个难看的字母。
做Maths C做到比绝望更加绝望的地步，Permutations and combinations这啥儿鬼东西我真的看不懂。
"How's your test going?"
"Aha. Sorry sir I give up."
"Well, you're brave. that's so much effort to make the decision to give up. haha."

真搞笑。
下周还有english和physics presentation. physics老师似乎期望很高，到时绝对不可以丢马来西亚华人的脸。
"There is nothing to scare of okay? You will be fine."
我很勇敢地顶回老师。"No sir. It's because english is not our first language. and see... there are local students in the class."
很明显地老师无言了。

curly curly~

Not to mention my Term three exams, I enjoyed this week. It is just because I'm leaving next week. I can't wait I can't wait. :)
Hey it's spring now.  Sometimes it's still freezing cold, especially at night.  It is the warmest during lunch break, which we used to sit on the ground and feel the warmness!  But not today, it's super hot during lunch break, like the sun is BBQ-ing you. haaha. I love it.  It's spring!  No longer winter.  Apparently I hate winter. hehe

Flipped back the text messages two months ago.  I gave my best wishes for him.  But now, it's like... "he's not that worthy for you to do so."  A best friend of mine told me this.  haha.  That's not a big deal for me anyway, I always do what I want to do.  Craze.
But now, disappointing.  Seriously.
This is what the chinese saying goes, "You get to know more about the person as time passes."  日久见人心la.
Whatever.  Life without someone isn't that hard.

如果我尊重你的选择 还为你幸福大声祈祷
你会不会听到  我在内心轻轻求饶


Anata wa omoshiroi. HAHA.

I love my curly hair. :)

我说啊，这下糟了。

奢侈

什么时候，就连睡觉也成了时间上的奢侈了。

48小时内只睡了3个小时。头疼。
没临时抱佛脚就成了这样，如果真来个last minute我想我干脆在大半夜只穿个背心到屋外吹冷风吹上一个小时，生病告假好了。
好呀还有3天，72个小时，到时我要睡饱饱。

我不睏真不睏。

但我需要杯特浓的咖啡。

我的信箱有三封信

USB里的文件很乱很乱，花了20分钟理出了个头绪。

找到了这一篇文章，我term one english assignment. 拿了班上唯一的A。

因为那是真的故事，用真的心写的。

It’s autumn and obviously it is colder. Summer has just ended. It seems like just yesterday that we celebrated the first day of 2011, and here, we are, jumping into March.

I have been here for almost two months, 45 days, to be specific. Prior to my arrival, time had  passed unevenly. Leaving my hometown, my beloved friends and family to study here has had a significant impact on my life. Memories start flickering. Suddenly, I have the urge to write a letter for you. That’s why I’m now scrawling on a piece of paper, writing something for you. You, the recipient of this letter, my memory.

Dear memory,

               I know you are packed with everything I have ever experienced. I know your size is infinite, having lots of rooms for me, to begin every new chapter of my own book, named LIFE.

I don’t know why I am here. My parents’ decision? My dream? I have no real idea. What I can recall is when my mother told me I would leave before SPM. WHAT?! I was staggered. I had been putting in so much effort,I had started my preparation for SPM after my PMR in form three. And now, I’m not going to sit for the examinations, the most important part of my secondary school life. I was trying to say ‘NO’ but somehow I knew I couldn’t. I had no option but to accept this decision.

I didn’t tell my friends before our final exams of Form Four. I kept it in my heart. As my best friends and I were chit-chatting or playing, I would feel a twinge of disappointment. I was going to leave them soon. I tried so hard to stick with them everytime I was at school; tried to text everyday; tried to chat on the phone everyday. I needed those moments for ‘you’, my memory, and for me.

               September, October, November…

Time crept by slowly. My friends were oblivious to the mood of melancholy that descended on me. Perhaps, I kept it deeply in my heart, so deep that nobody would notice. Perhaps, to them, I was still the girl who was a little crazy, who never pulled a long face. Until the last day of final semester exams…

I can vividly remember that the last paper was the Add Maths paper. It was the  last test paper I would have in my secondary school, SMK Chung HuaMiri. It was the last paper I would sit with all my friends! And my beloved teachers! The moment before I handed in my Add Maths paper, I was still trying to check my working solutions, but somehow, I could not concentrate. I held the paper with trembling hands and sat in gloomy silence. ‘You’ disturbed me. ‘You’ appeared, I could think only of ‘you’. My eyes were brimming with tears; I tried desperately to hold them back.

You showed me everything, every moment I had enjoyed with my beloved friends. Suddenly, I lost control of my emotions and burst into tears and hugged my best friend. There was no crying scene recorded by ‘you’ before this, right? This was the only one. My first cry in 2010.I poured out everything after that. For a few minutes, they stood in shocked silence. Nothing much to say, all of them gave me warm hugs. How many hugs did I get that day? I can’t remember. Can ‘you’? What I do remember is how their warmth melted my heart.

Then, there came the farewell parties, lunches, presents, shopping, cinemas, special handmade cards and lovely conversations. ‘You’ are keeping those moments for me, aren’t you? I am so thankful that I have ‘you’.  The day I left, I received many text messages from friends and relatives. Unfortunately I could not meet up with them before I departed. On the plane, I didn’t cry. I promised my friends I would not cry. We would meet again someday. To be honest, I was so pleased that my family came with me, I was not alone and of course, I had ‘you’.

I had never had to imagine life without my family. This was the very first time we would be apart. We stayed together for one week before school started. I appreciated every moment of it. ‘You’ hold all those moments- I helped my father to iron his clothes; I helped my mother to do massage; I played the childish games with my brother and sisters, which I had never done before. They sent me to my new home, my homestay and we waved a final goodbye. How hard that was, to say goodbye to those I had been with for my entire life.

I was leaving my parents who had take care of me for sixteen years. I can hardly describe the feeling. ‘You’ should know it. We all must learn to be independent but, I was forced to be independent. Leaving family, it hurts, especially when ‘you’ appear to remind me of them. However, what could I do? I was given the privilege to study overseas. I was definitely grateful. After all, I have the chance that many of my friends crave. I do appreciate it and I must study hard and get good results to reward my parents.

And so to my life here. I cannot forget the purpose of being here. ‘You’ will never let me! I am here to seek knowledge and learn to be independent. I absolutely, without a doubt, felt so stressful during the first week of school. I couldn’t adapt to the new study style which differs so from Malaysia. I had nobody to tell, except ‘you’. ‘You’ brought my happy moments back: the sweet reminders from home all came flooding back. I was driven by a ferocious determination after that. I told myself I must go through this hardship. Life is not hard. It is simple. What I need to do is to persevere. Persistence always pays off.

 If ‘you’ ask me how my life is so far, I would tell you, I’m enjoying it. I left my hometown and came here for my future, striving for my dream. This is the prominent part of me, for this girl who is turning seventeen. This event may possibly change my future. I need ‘you’ to know this as the way to understand me and help me to carve them in my heart.

From,

Your owner.

             

I fold the paper and put it in an envelope. I write the address. To: The lovely you in my deep heart. Even if after years, the letter rots, those moments will remain in my heart, never to be forgotten.

引用的格式是我写关于文娱晚会经历所用的格式。那时候华文老师说我们必须写一篇关于文娱晚会的文章。我想：我给回忆写封信怎么样。
那篇文章就叫做，给记忆的一封信。
这一篇叫做，A letter for you.

最近我的信箱收到了封信，打开，还是不打开呢？
后来 终于在眼泪中明白  有些人一旦错过就不再
刘若英的后来

“我收到一个有意思的邮件，要跟朋友一起做。同桌，帮个忙呗？”
“好啊。”
“那么……我最喜欢的颜色？”
“黑色。”
“我最擅长的学科？”
“数学。”
“我们家的宠物？”
“一直叫笨笨的狗。”
“我的穿着风格？”
“混搭。”
“我玩的游戏？”
“天下贰。”
“我绝对不知道的一件事？”
“我爱你。”

:) Good luck for the coming exams! We fight for our dream. =)

挂了

很累很累
记得上一次因为同样的原因哭了一次，是在我到这里的第二天。
 自己一个人撑下去的感觉很不好受。人是不是真会那么乐观；一个星期前说：Nothing's gonna beat me. 对的，我只会懦弱那么一次，再坚持下去，日子总要过。

妈妈说未来还有六年，再以后的未来我们不可能一直陪你。
如果我不在这里，面对的只是SPM的压力，虽然很大很大，我绝对不会崩溃。
有爸爸从远方打来的电话；有妈妈在半夜三点起身骂我让我去睡觉的声音；有弟弟妹妹们可恶的嬉闹声；还有朋友们在半夜奋斗时的信息或miss call.
让我知道他们和我在一起。
若让我再选一次我还是会选择留下面对SPM. 可容不得我选择。

14天，我要回家。未来还有多少个14天，主与我同在。

感动的粗口

赵先生前一天晚上喝醉了回家..睁开眼后竟然看到床头放了一杯水跟几颗头痛药，
然后坐起身后又看到了他的衣服已经烫好、叠好在床边。一起床就看到这样反常的事，他决定起床看一看还有没有什麼奇怪的事。

他把几颗头痛药吃了。吃的时候突然发现药下有一张纸条，纸条上写著：

「亲爱的，我出去买菜了，你的早餐我已经做好放在餐桌上，趁热吃吧！爱你哦！」

赵先生一头雾水的走进了厨房，然后就真的看到了热腾腾的早餐在桌上，还有当天的早报。他看著坐在餐桌吃早餐的儿子问：
「儿子啊，昨天到底发生了什麼事？」

儿子回答：
「嗯，你凌晨三点大吼大叫的回了家，把几个家俱给打坏了。
然后又在走廊上撞了墙壁几下，送给自己一个黑眼圈！」

 赵先生越来越不明白，又问儿子：
「那为什麼家裡给打扫的那麼乾净，然后又做了热腾腾的早餐给我吃呢？！」

儿子恍然大悟地说：
「喔，你是在问那个喔！
妈昨天看到你醉死的回家，一肚子火的把你拉到房间裡，然后想把你脏衣服换掉。过后狠狠地揍你一顿的..
结果当她想脱你裤子的时候，你骂了她一句 : 」

「X 你 妈 X ！我已经有老婆了！」

 

幸福很忙

  

真神奇。< 和 3能拼成一个心。

"Who are you?"
"Sheryl Chai la."
"I don't think so."
Silence.
"Answer this question, if you get it right then i believe you're sheryl chai.Who is Clare Chua?"
"fattie."
"oh hoh! you're not sheryl chai. the right answer: Cutie."

 呵小小不要脸的幸福．

幸福很忙很忙，所以我愿意放下脚步去等．

Surprise

I turned 17 not long ago.  They gave me a surprise.  Was it a surprise?  Yeah sort of.  I didn't expect so many people to come.  A small surprise. What is all about Surprise?  You got something that you have never expected before.  Check the dictionary.  Hah.

I've gone through 17 years of my life.  Aha, still a long way to go.  I was surprised for can't-be-counted times. Haha, strange though it may sound, but I'm still pleased that I'm that worthy to be surprised. :)  Heyy life is full of surprise ya.

I can't remember the surprise I received when I was young.  Probably until nine years old, yep, nine.  The age you start to remember something, start to do your memories collection, has grown up and start to appreciate what you got.  I had my first birthday party when i was nine.  15 people attended my birthday party.  The surprise was: I got a big doll from my friend, I have no idea where it is now. noted that I am not that in love with that doll, it actually scared me when i was sleeping. It was totally a nightmare. Hmm, but still, it was a surprise gift.


And when i was ten, the biggest and the most wonderful surprise I ever had.  My little brother is born.  On the day after Valentine's Day.  I can still recall those days.  I was having my monthly test, yep, Primary Four.  And my dad accompanied my mom to the Sibu Hospital.  I was so damn excited when I received the call from my dad, saying that I have a little brother.  Well, I'm glad that i have two younger sisters who always quarrel with me, but by that time they were all grown up, 8 years old and 5 years old.  What I was excited about was, I had a baby to play with.  Aha.

Recalling the days of happiness, see, I haunt my memories. :)
My brother is now 7 years old, a big boy.  Thanks so much to God, and my parents for giving me a brother.  who always fight with me. lol

Studies and co-curriculum activities were the annoying part in my high school life.  It is a toss-up between the two elements.  Oh nope, you must have the two elements, and must be good, in order to get yourself good scholarship.  My mother surprised me when she allowed me to join the co-curriculum activities.  I know it's tiring to be a driver, (lol, my mom calls herself a driver).  But then she still supported me, especially last year. When i was form 4.  The another surprise!

Oh yeah, he gave me a surprise.  Maybe it's not a surprise for him, but for me, it is.  My third birthday wish was from him.
Surprise is when you get something you do not expect!

But it was no longer there.  Thanks to my phone to delete it automatically.

Memories haunt me.  uhuhh, not good.

Today was a nice day.  Not to mention my IELTS results, I haven't get it. Probably Monday.  It's been a long time my shoulders do not heave with laughters.  nah, the crazy type.  My friend and I laughed till sesak nafas this morning. Great, fighting, for our exams next week.

真心话大冒险

那一天，她接到了他的来电。他对她说：我们在一起吧。
尽管她听到那一方传来的窃窃笑声，她还是很淡定地说：好啊。
之后她又问：大冒险又输了吧？
他说：我选的是真心话。

Source: Yee Sian