标着Just Do It 的口号 我希望我也是NIKE.

正午后的阳光一点儿也不客气，走在路上的时候那仅有的微风拂过被晒得刺痛的皮肤。

原来那一瞬间就是幸福。

最近很喜欢望着天空，除了恼那太阳公公为何那么来势汹汹，我喜爱天空总是存在的遐想。

偶尔看见飞鸟，偶尔看见缓缓上升的直升机。还有一次很好运地看见了升空的热气球。

热气球上的人儿肯定很兴奋，就那么一点儿热气，载着沉沉的人类飞翔。

坐在车上沿途的风景依然那么熟悉，那是两年以来每个星期固定的路程。

同样的道路，同样的建筑物，还有那与我同名的Clare Street。

在等一个交通灯的时候，坐在静止的车，抬头看见了那台缓缓飞行的飞机。

看似那么近的距离，感觉伸手就能把它捉住。忽地红灯转绿灯，在车开始运行的当下，明白了我们之间的距离是那么地遥远。

我不能像有些人那样回忆当初，感慨这个遗憾那个，因为我就是不容许自己那样。

我不能像有些人那样潇潇洒洒，挥一挥衣袖不带走一片云彩，因为我本能地想把一切都收起来。

或许，我就是一个怪人。

（365乘2）天，同样的我，又或者不同样的我。

这些的起承转合纷纷扰扰，有谁不能更了解人生？

17岁的那一天，直到19岁的今天，19减17也只不过等于2。但这个2要经过那么多的加减乘除，来到了19的时候，我依旧迷茫。

一片黑暗，看不清是什么，因为我们都曾蒙蔽了双眼。

蒙了双眼，蒙不了心。

我们需要的就是那种在黑暗中乱闯的勇气，就是要be adventurous啊。

就算被人认为是mental problem那又如何？至少在跌入谷底的时候曾经开心。

呵呵，什么时候我变成了不三思而后行的人，那是在18岁前的莽撞，在迈入2014年即将变成20岁的当下，我请自己把鲁莽莽撞收起来吧。

我还有3天的时间，去把思绪打包妥当，背了2年零4个月的包袱，2014年我不想背了。

不想战战兢兢，不想草木皆兵。

 New Years Resolution总是不成功，算了吧，别勉强了。

只要把这个包袱给丢了，我想我2014年就算是the best of the year了吧。

险中求胜，我就是个坏丫头。

好了好了，不该把这种坏情绪带到第二天，这样太不值得了，撇开睡觉时间不算，我只剩下不到12小时的时间去快乐。

这个分岔口，我们来到了停顿点，看谁先走向谁吧。是的，你和我一直都是那么地倔强呢。

标着Just Do It 的口号

我希望我也是NIKE.

Being sociable

Life during summer has been good. I am pretty sure I'm gonna fall in love with it soon.

Being sociable isn't that easy for me. In comparison with some of my friends, without a doubt I will probably be the noisiest one among the gang. However, the moment when I need to meet new friends - ohh, one word. awkward.

I get to know more friends in uni, I'm not sociable, but really thank God for giving me a friend who is really really really sociable. haha, can't describe how sociable my friend is. However, the first impression my friend has on me was bad, oh not that bad though. She thought I was the 'coolest' person in the world! When both of us talked about this, we laughed out loud.

So, yes, I reckon I should take Communication as my electives in order to improve my social skills. bahhh. In fact, according to many, I'm talkative. I talk too much. Of course, to clarify, this happens only when the person I'm talking to likes talking as well!

Everyone tends to stay in their comfort zone. When I have close friends around me, I will not bother to meet new friends! (hmmm, not good!) Anyways, I'm starting to love meeting new friends, different people and different cultures! I smell adventure!!!

Oh well, these people conquered my house last night. Steamboat, followed by a birthday surprise & movie marathon from 10pm - 4am in the morning. Everyone was too tired to go home and decided to sleep at my place! 

After 4 hours sleep, a really old cranky man (yes, he's probably getting grumpier for he needs to work in the early morning) woke all of us up when he was repairing the neighbours garage gate. UH-HUHHH. 

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Lala. I can't wait for the girls talk tomorrow night. Another party is on. Before uni comes back into my life! Summer semester officially starts next Monday, and sadly I have 8am classes from Monday to Thursday. Oh wish me luck! 

For those who are going on vacation/already enjoying their holidays in Malaysia, yes I AM JEALOUS and stop making me jealous. 

My phone rejects all photos of durians, laksa, shopping centres and also, the sky. 

mehhhhhhhhh!

A far-off memory for a dream

Aiya, it is the last day of Spring, but it feels like winter. Believe it or not I'm wearing my winter pyjamas. At the same time when I'm typing this, I'm tutoring my sister on Maths B (it is seriously killing me, it was so easy back in my Year 11!). And also, I'm bitting my green apple to ease my gastric pain but it seems to be making me more hungry. Apparently having afternoon tea isn't a wise decision as you will probably skip your dinner!

this might be a point-less post, I have nothing to do when sister is doing the sample questions. 

it's November now. This year has been a really short year, don't get me wrong, there is still 24 hours a day, 30 days a month and 365 days a year for 2013, but I just felt like.. i'm only up to June 2013. A few words to conclude my 2013 - A far off memory for a scattered dream. or perhaps, the other way round, a far off dream for a scattered memory. nah whatever.

There is a time for everything - let's call it the cycle? time to weep, time to mourn, time to laugh and time to play! And I believe God has assigned me the right cycle to follow.

However, I'm afraid to recall, such a big coward to remind me those stupid memories. For the people, for all the chaos. However, the only thing that I would like to remind myself is my courage to give up on explaining - to those who love to think the way that they want to.  I get really tired of doing the same old thing all the time, despite of my determination to do it differently, I'm afraid to do it, to do the new thing. And therefore, I gave up to get out of the rut. For the days in future, I need this sweet little reminder. Everyone needs it anyways!

Which was worse when left unexplained? A life? Death? Nahh, not such a big deal, at least I thought it is not. It's probably just a few second of the scattered memory, which is, yes, only deserves a few second.
But more than enough for a reminder.

Just like what a friend advised me: for a person who comes blank in your mind, without that explanation, you lose nothing. so why bother it? 

Yes, I've learned the lesson hard. I mean it.

Of course, to be optimistic, I can exaggerate my happiness in 2013! Really really counting the blessings where I got the chance to travel around with awesome friends. First was Sydney followed by Tasmania! Nothing's better than travelling around, snapping photos and of course, eating ahaha

Oh wait, I should stop here, leave the rest for my 2013 conclusion post!

*Another apple... nomnommnommmm.

Post-exams

Bonjour!

It's the third day after exams, and I'm feeling bored. Opps, sorry I didn't mean to be sarcastic to those who are still having exams this week. I'm pretty sure you guys will feel the same way as me after exams.

The post-exams syndrome? NAHHH not PTS-ing.

Of course, after exams, you get relieved from stress, and you start to question yourself: what should I do? Cleaning? Watching dramas? Shopping? Or for guys, gaming?
You take out your to-do list which you have written during exams period, there are 20 of them.
But then you are too lazy to start the first task.

Thank God I braced up all my determination on Saturday morning and washed my car. It was a sunny morning and I was exposed to that scorching sunlight for at least 3 hours.  I was sweating over once I finished it! (Guess what, there will be thunderstorm in Brisbane for this coming week. oh plssss!)

Then I did my laundry, cleaned my room and settled all the billing stuffs. Headed to church for fellowship, and so concluded my Saturday. Well-spent but seriously exhausted.

Sunday! A morning with God and headed to IKEA after our korean lunch. Somehow I really love IKEA shopping although it is tiring. We spent more than 2 hours there! Got some stuffs for the house but yes, I gotta visit IKEA anytime soon. (blahh.)

Finally, back to gym. Once again I am feeling alive. Running on treadmill for 30 minutes + 15 minutes cross-training + some weight-lifting. The night after, my body was really sore, uhh but the feeling was gooood!

Yea and MONDAY which is today, I woke up late. Sister expected me to prepare breakfast for her but I slept in. A 9 hours sleep from 9.30pm to 6.30am - feeling so refresh! Cooked a really big breakfast to pamper myself, with my favourite green matcha smoothies in the jar. It was a really good kick off breakfast.

However, I got tired/impatient while waiting for an electrician to come to settle the solar system problem. I was lying on my couch watching the TV and felt so lifeless (LOL) Finally, he came, switched on a power switch and left in 5 minutes. I was like O.O cos he could have instructed me on the phone cos it was really super easy to do! Just to get the switch on, that's it. But still, he must be so helpful to come all the way down from (lol, somewhere out there) to help me.

In the mid-day, I got a phone call from an unknown number and was told that my piano was on the way! WUHOOOOO. Oh yeaa my baby is here now, right in front of me.

Apparently I was too lazy to drag myself to gym - too lazy to drive! So I decided to go some toning workout and cardio at home muahahaha. The links below are the workout that I've done today. Try them!

I personally love the Victoria Secret abs workout, it was tough at the beginning when I first started to do it few months ago, but it's getting easier!

Oh I have gained weight! ARGH, I can foresee that during study week and exams period, but still, I felt really grumpy and even scolded myself for the lack of discipline on my food cravings. The main cause of my weight gain is probably because of the eating patterns and lifestyle within these three weeks. I did not get much chances to move around, my butt could stick on the chair for more than 10 hours per day (except going toilet and showering). Meanwhile, we had all those snacks to keep us awake, and I'll never forget the night when all of us were struggling on whether to open that bag of chips or not! opppsieee. Also, 3 cups of espresso EVERY morning has eventually made my body so toxic I guess. Time for detox heyy. 

Time to shed some kilos away for the summer! (sounds so familiar, bahaha)

Procrastination doesn't work - don't slack!  Cheers for a healthier body and better lifestyle.

ahahaha, sorry for this long and lame post. Off to dinner & of course followed by a dessert session! (Yes, I'm still enjoying good foooood!)

Ciao~

Swot vac - I'm still alive.

Hi, the last day of swot vac. Thank God, I'm still alive.

To sum it up,

1. The BSL fighting group
I totally forgot who came up with this idea to create a FB group. All of us should really thank the founder of BSL fighting group. I felt really thankful and blessed to be in one of the members. Those girls and boys in the study group have eventually made 'studies' easier (by a weeee bit). Oh, why is it named as BSL fighting group? Cos our group is rooted to Biological Science Library - the 24 hours study space.

The funniest thing was we are now friends with the old security guard. Remember there is this thin old man who is always punctual, checking our Student ID at 8pm, scolding us for being toooo noisy and also, waking us up if we fall asleep? Yes, that's our new friend! In fact, he is quite friendly.

BSL is the newest library in UQ and everyone likes to study there for its new environment. So I reckon that is one of the reasons why we named the group as BSL fighting group. Not only on studies, but fighting on the group room reservation. Early bird owns the room! Thank God we managed to have a room for at least 6 hours every day during swot vac. And we are seriously in love with Group Room 6 in level 3.

2. Coffee
I can't emphasis enough HOW MUCH I HATE COFFEE now. But I need the caffeine. *sob. All of us have been drinking at least 3 cups of coffee since last friday. Nah, we got them for free! As there is this coffee machine at the side kitchen of International House (one of my friends lives there), and we help ourselves!

Now is the caffeine resistance that worries me a lot, perhaps my body cells have this resistance to fight against caffeine, even three shots of espresso do not work on me! Then the night before this I tried MOTHER and it tastes seriously bad - just like the 'dettol'. I had a few sips and started feeling dizzy so I guess I should really stop drinking caffeine now.

Noted I'm not addicted to coffee, but sick of it.

3. FOOD
All the food lovers gather in the study group! Our new love is the chocolate MARS PODS muahaha. In contrast, we ate a lot of fresh cucumber slices. Yes, at least we can claim that we reached that healthiness equilibrium.

4. Sleep
5 hours sleep is enough for us, but after two days of having only 5 hours sleep, all of us were just like zombie. So on Tuesday, all of us decided to have a really good sleep so that our 'battery' get recharged! That night... I went to bed at 8.30pm and woke up around 5am. FELT SUPER DUPER SHUANG LAH. but too much sleep made me tired again.

what the heck is all of these hormones doing inside our body?

anyways, it comes to an end and it's time to get involved in that WAR!
In 7 days time, I'll be free free freeeeee oh yeahhhh.

Good luck lah guys! All the best.

I love Uni. & here's another good news

YAYYYY. It's Friday. All glory to God, I survived the week! Of course, not to forget those crazy laughters that my friends and I had during lectures and classes.

Well, remember about the good news that I shared last week? Here comes the another one. The another twin of mine - the ugly duckling is coming to Brisbane soon!  Ohmygoshhhh I can't wait till the days us three are together again bahahaha. hey duckling I look forward to your arrival: your big face, your pimples, your long curly hair and your huggies.

I think we can be a great combination: your big face, E's small face and my medium face. *bahaha.

The moments that I've been waiting for! finally, please, 2014, treat me well with all these people around? fingers crossed.

2014-2018, we gonna rock Brisbane all over again, just like how we did in Chung Hua the 4S1. 

So, uni's been treating me well so far, I love uni.  Perhaps these changes of mindset are caused by my 4 months long break after I withdrew from my previous course.  I enjoy uni now, and enjoy every single bits of it: the assignments, the exams, my group mates, my coursemates and my lecturers.  ahaha, although I always skip lectures, I still love my lecturers okay? blahh.

Assignment might be dreadful, but sometimes I do enjoy the late night moments, switching windows between chrome, microsoft words and microsoft powerpoint.  It is a few precious quiet moments that you can actually give your full concentration on your work.  I really enjoy that quietness after 2am: you even can hear the ticking of the clock! Nahh, to be able to do that, I need to get my adrenalin level rising, rising, keep on rising till it hits the peak.. 

Besides, Exams was okay, apparently i love assignments more than exams, but exams give you a chance, oh well, FORCE you to get back on track on what's going on in your courses.  Thanks to the mid-semester exams, or else I'll just put myself at that critical point where I need to hide myself in my room to catch up the lectopias throughout the whole semester before final exams.  

okay lah, just a quick post about my uni life, and also sharing that extremely good news.  This will definitely make my weekend a colourful one.  What's on for weekend?  A few rewards for myself after this busy week: a Saturday's brunch & a catch-up dinner with the lovelies! Stay tuned!

Reviews on 2013 New Year's Resolution & who's ready for 2013 SEM2 resolutions.

Hi, I'm doing this because I want to keep myself awake. I drank a cup of coffee but somehow caffeine doesn't work on me anymore, unfortunately. Nowadays I can even go to bed around 10.30pm! Okay I should be thankful, because this leads to a healthier life, as I wake up automatically around 6am. then I can eventually spend hours in bed texting, stalking ppl on instagram etc etc.. until my stomach tells me: it's time to feed me heyy.

Nah, just a random mumble. Actually I'm gonna write a review on myself, regarding my 2013 new year's resolution. (I found my 2013 diary on the shelves and apparently I didn't touch it for ages! I flipped it to the first page and laughed out loud at my 2013 new year's resolutions.)  Okay, I've actually failed most of them.

1. First year of civil engineering-no more slacking no more procrastination!
Sounds so enthusiastic, but there's no even a chance for me to slack. because I quit after 4 months! The funniest joke that ever happened in my life so far. So much struggles and finally came to that decision. Just gotta bear with all the circumstances. Still, thank God it's almost over, soon...
FYI, I'm doing Food Technology.

2. Sleep early & Wake up early-Live a healthy life
Okay, I should say that I did achieve this since last week, but not for the weeks/months before. 24 hours won't be enough for a student, bahaha.

3. EXERCISE
Yes I do, although I slack sometimes. Recently we've found that a midnight jog makes us feel better; jogging and enjoying the silence.

4. Get a part time job
Oh yea, I got one, but stopped working once the student visa was cancelled. And can only get back to work next semester. That's why I get bored always.

5. Sydney Trip - LEEHOM
HAHAHA, laughing at this, I don't know how can this be the new year's resolution. Crap lah. However, Leehom is handsome, there is no doubt!!!! and he is so talented heyyy.

I jotted down five new year's resolutions on the first day of 2013. Then I've actually found some others new year's resolutions in my previous post.

6. Spend as much time as I can with my family, love them and care them!

No matter what family is always the best. Feel it.

7. Work harder in university!

no comment. if you really want one, scroll up, refer to #1.

8. Keep friendship on sail always, especially those in Malaysia

uhhuh, still working hard on this, but everyone's real busy with studies! A meet-up in April really made me loving them more. Anyways, am too blessed cos I have awesome friends in brissie too! 

9. Stay happy no matter what happen, have faith in God

The maintenance fees for happiness are high beyond my ability. still trying hard to achieve the real 'happy-go-lucky' mode. So I guess this is the homework for everyone's life. and yes this should be in our new year's resolution EVERY YEAR!

And actually a few months ago, I added one to my new year's resolutions list: no more deep fried food! Apparently this has become the major failure and am actually gonna make it true for my 2013 SEM TWO resolutions. bahahaha. 

yes i can do it. 

we'll see.

Insta-talk #2

The third day of uni: it wasn't my day to be honest. okay let's forget about it.

This is the second insta-talk! I've not been writing about my Instagram for ages, the first edition was in July 2012: click this.

So what's the insta-talk on my blog? Basically I just post all the instagram photos that I've posted throughout the month, haha I'm just so in love with instagram.  I think I should keep this up every month, as it's the best way to summarise the month I reckon.

The story started... on the day I touched down in Brisbane after that long summer holidays in SI.

I woke up to this; unpacking stuffs, tidying up my room!

 And starvation. The only food that I could find in my boxes.

Madura Green Tea and the Marie Biscuits.

 Then, online shopping with friends. 

Such a brilliant way to shop right! You see detailsssss.

Boredom. That hot summer night in Brisbane. 

Yes I dyed my hair in red but now the colour faded :(

 Finally done my groceries shopping and yayy for my yummy breakfast! 

 Plus a sunny day for laundry on A sunday morning. Praise the Lord.

 Hotpot for dinner, as a reward for ourselves after washing our cars. (we spent two and a half hours on it) geez.

 TADAAA, finally our Topshop has arrived!

My biker Jacket, my wardrobe is ready for winter.

 Miss them lots and lots, our friendship never end; 

letters & words are best to deliver and express our feelings!

(Yeaa, sometimes I write crap and handwritings getting uglier at the end)

owhh, of course, our dinner date every night for two weeks!

followed by the movie sessions.

Then, my family came for Chinese New Year because both my sister and I weren't in SI for CNY.

We stayed in the hotel, and...

Lots of fun!

 Yes, monkey. or koala on a tree.

 My parents woke me up at 6.30am in the morning for this.

Breakfast @Kitchen at Treasury.

 Happy Chinese New Year!

Reunion at Marco Polo Dining Bar.

(Stay tuned for the post, coming soon)

 Fresh fruits from the hotel manager. aww longan!

 Asians Brunch @ Yum Cha Cuisine, Carindale Shopping Centre.

The best dim sum restaurant in Brisbane!

Dinner @ Fat Noodle. And the lion dance troupe visited.

My sweet momma.

Check this out for Fat Noodle: Click here.

 Lunch @ New ShangHai, Queens Plaza.

(Food Hunting series about this: coming soon)

 Happy Birthday once again Mr Fritz Chua!

He's officially nine years old now. A big boy!

 Yes this is my big boy.

And no longer the little kid who kissed me and hugged me when I asked him to do so.

Six days later, they were going back! see how time flies yea.

The Pineapple Tarts from my dad's friend

 Supper with our new outfits on! Shop ASOS. http://www.asos.com.au

Me in my Did I Studder Sweater.

 Valentine's dinner with candles!

Check this out on how I celebrated it: click here.

 Dinner date: Lobsters in the house.

That cold night I drove all the way up to the highest point of Brisbane, Mt Co-otha.

It was after our dinner @ Que Huong Chinese & Vietnamese Restaurant, Darra. 

Well, I failed my Side Parking. heyy there's no lines on the ground like the driving learning institute has.

 Brisbane to Redcliffe: just for this seafood basket. REALLY FRESH.

 Heavy rain during our Redcliff trip. 

Check this out for the trip: http://www.clare-chua.com/2013/02/day-trip-redcliff.html

 Cooked dinner. Braised gravy beef; Green Veges and my favourite onions with eggs.

 Breakkie. Plain yoghurt with fresh blueberries!

 You have no choice but wearing this when there's no socks left in your drawer. due to the rainy days.

They are cute tho. Thanks dear!

 Sorry If I've frightened you.

But heyy I'm a little cute chipmunks Clare.

 This was yummy, although it looks disgusting.

Don't judge a book by its cover. 

 ENGG1100 Project Day.

Time to socialize. Met some new friends who are really nice!

 Who doesn't love sunny-side up eggs?

 My favourite frozen yoghurt @ Moochi, GC.

That busy Saturday, meeting up my dear Maddy who is now in Melbourne :(

All the best there! 

 The lotus root peanut soup for our last dinner date. (sobs)

 Food-creativity: instead of butter, I spread plain yoghurt on my toast.

YUMM.

 Thank God we are all back in Brisbane for the new year! Made fruits platter for Sherwood Youth Fellowship.

 Chinese New Year 2013 is over. Made this yee sang for our potluck. 

(The post about Chap Goh Mei, coming soon)

Sister gave me a mould for fried eggs; gave it a go.

Delicious eggs with that thick eggwhites layer! Cucumber and always my all-time favourite smoked salmon!!!

Owh, finally I'm done with this. I think I miss out some photos, but nahh, for more just check out my instagram @_ClareChua. Yes I apologise for those upcoming posts! As you can see, I'm updating my blog everyday (which I normally don't) 

hehee, gonna get ready for my dinner/supper session. I need a treat for myself after this long and hectic Wednesday. 

Ciao~

Bff

Do you know exactly what you want?  How do you define best friends; and how do you treat your bff.

It was a really short conversation, a random one I can say.

I started off the topic by saying that we didn't really 'stick' together when I was back in Malaysia for holidays. 

And the question came along, do best friends need to be together always? Shoulders with shoulders, that's the definition given to bff?

Both of us agreed that best friends don't need to be together always, it's all about trust, love and the willingness to share everything. Even if two friends 'stick' together like every second, that doesn't mean they are best friends, to others they might be, but, who knows?

We are miles apart. We don't really whatsapp/text/skype.  It just comes all in a random way, when I'm walking on the street, I feel like hearing her voice, I will just call her no matter what time is it. (yeah normally she's in class but she still picks up the phone and whispers! Then she hangs up the phone within 30 seconds without listening to what I'm talking about -.-); 'OI' is how we start our whatsapp conversation and yeah we talk crap, so sometimes we just end up not replying each other (haha); We skype, not often. and somehow we enjoy the silence between us.

堪称最闷得城市？

这一段看似好长的一段假期似乎快接近尾声了。

下个星期五就要回到这座城市，堪称澳洲最闷的城市-.-

上大学的第一份礼物就是一台新电脑，在清理旧电脑的时候发现了好多照片。

是呀我就是那么地杂乱无章，就差没有把desktop那一面塞得满满的而已。

然后就发现了这一张照片，那一座城市，连Brisbane Eye也不经意地被摄入了。
忘了是哪个角度拍的，记忆中并没有这么一个地方能看见这道似古老的墙和摩天轮。
在开学之前给自己一份作业吧：找出这个地方。

哦，是该装扮自己开始去job interview了。
小孩们的钢琴老师？能胜任吗。
另外一份功课：试着改变吧，2013年开始就是社会新人类了。
再也不是90后的小毛头，瞬间感觉自己变得好老。

泡泡呢不经意地留下了蛛丝马迹

「漫長路　慶幸你我同步　三葉草　陪伴著不卻步   不同理念和方式互補　鋪造一條屬於我們驕傲的道路」

光良的歌喉总是那么地触动人心，那么地绕梁。

十二月，随时都回有钩起中学回忆的那支针。

穿针引线地把中学不知道form多少的回忆陆陆续续地带回来。

Instagram，Facebook上都是中学各个club的慰劳宴或camp。

还有大家回到大家各自思念着的小城市，朋友们之间的聚会接踵而来，照片一张又一张。

很感伤的是，照片里少了我。

很复杂的心情其实。

因为家人都不在那座小城市，归家归家，所以家，理论上是不在那里。

但是那一堆的朋友啊，都是我中学的支柱们哪～

这个星期重复的daily routine，生理钟似乎已经调节好了。

日复日，夜复夜的，不用看表就知道这个时刻我该干些什么。

一整个下午就败给了康熙。

一直笑，不停地笑，我笑点就是低怎样。

把半个10月的康熙都看完了。

真的真的，很开怀呢，就那样地捧着西瓜（解渴）地憨笑着。

老妈无语了吧哈。

该睡了吧，咖啡因在作祟呢。

吃了太辣的咖喱然后狂喝老妈的黑咖啡。

都是“咖”一家族的，想说应该治得了对方。

好吧，我疯了。

好像真的语无伦次了。

感觉自己有时候真的很孬，起伏的心情总要时间来沉淀，还来不及过滤的时候又来瞎搅和。

这样好吗？不好吧？真的不好吗？

那个曾经让我舒服地开玩笑的他

日子久了像是把我拖到摩天轮上，一时高一时低。

眼帘的风景都不一样，很战战兢兢地想一直待在最高处。

惧高的同时还要照顾一下心理素质，若是“呼咚”一声掉了下来就不好了。

而今我很窝囊地想举白旗，告诉你我不玩了，忍耐也差点爆了表。

生气了；伤心了；惋惜了；叹气了。

现在我说： 拜拜咯。

所以说呀，人真的很可爱。

在一个意想不到的处境时会很难以置信，一直问是真的吗是真的吗，在想亲耳听到人家说是真的之余，还想捏捏自己的脸，期待那一阵的疼痛感。

像泡泡一样虚无缥缈的意想不到，很想紧紧地拥抱它、久久都不放却发现不可以。

也许泡泡已经有意无意地嵌入了生活中，时而出现时而消失。

那我宁愿放弃这样短暂的美丽，宁愿它不再出现，不再在我的生活圈子里让我见到一丁点的蛛丝马迹。

对，就这样，悄无声息，不要有任何的出现过的轨迹。

今晚没什么特别，很多很多的星星，所以我想向星星许个愿。

再蠢都好，没有人会向自己的愿望说谎的。

十二月，没我的允许，悄悄地闯入我的生命

这个夏天好热好热

坐在地上感觉冷冷的瓷砖，看着天花板的那扇风扇转呀转

电脑还热到overheat自动关机，40度的下午，真的好难顶

有股冲动做公车到UQ图书馆去享受冷气看YouTube吃东西

很喜欢猫头鹰，somehow
一堆猫头鹰造型的项链和戒指，感觉就是很vintage，I love Vintage
First impression猫头鹰并不和善，似乎很难清静，但其实鹰儿眼睛大碌碌的很可爱。

十一月的咖啡因中毒，没有晚餐然后狂喝咖啡的两个星期，之后问到黑咖啡的味道都胃疼
一起进入考场，这一次没有口头上的加油，有真真切切的微笑，一切尽在不言中
大家一起说要熬夜结果大家都很早就睡了，毕竟睡觉还是最重要的
还是一样有Starbucks卡布奇诺陪我度过考试
并不喜欢自己一个人开车，不喜欢车里冷清清的
喜欢在车里和乘客分享大小事务，然后大家一起大笑，导致做司机的我miss了很多个junction和traffic light
喜欢在车里大家一起唱歌，一起飙高音显海豚音
不断地提醒自己supper对身体不好却宁愿skip lunch/dinner就为了supper
没有alarm却有太阳公公叫醒的早晨，就算只睡4个小时也很精神奕奕
十一月的最后一个星期，有礼尚往来的祝福，短短的一个international text，screen shot下来，原来你还是没变，只是我变了
我的十一月悄悄地过了，留下的无限回忆，像幻灯片一样
我却下意识地把某些部分fast forward跳过，只想把精彩的无限量放大放大再放大，然后定格
之后，十二月，没我的允许，悄悄地闯入我的生命
无声息地到来，已经悄悄地跨过了五天的昼夜

你知道吗，信任是要时间建立的
可是你似乎根本不稀罕我们的信任，还是你把它当成战利品
圣诞老人，你好吗？ 你似乎奔波了好一阵子却没找上我
我不需要放在红色袜子里超大分的礼物，就只希望你默许我一个愿望
就一个，我不贪心。

Actually, I wanna Thank you Lord Jesus.  Thanks for leading me through the November, with ups and downs, highs and lows.  Thank you Father for the peace that you have granted.

或许圣诞老人啊，可以帮我带个礼物给主耶稣，Happy birthday in advanced.
我献上感谢，因你恩典满溢. :)

Tuesday, no Indigo!!

Hey there! 6 days to our final exams. HAHAHA. Apparently I'm excited.

Can't really concentrate with phone beside me. I don't like to keep my phone on silent mode cos I don't like the vibration mode.  However, the msg alert somehow annoyed me this afternoon and I eventually muted that group conversation HAHAHA SORRY!
Whatsapp, Instagram, WeChat and Viber. All those distractions! But I can't stand the stress if I don't have those.  Warm text messages always melt my heart :D
Thank God I'm blessed! :)

And the bunny from a friend in Malaysia.  Always with me when I'm studying at home. 

CHATIME! Uji Matcha Red Bean Sorbet plus Fig Jelly -.-

That silly person ordered Fig Jelly with Red Bean Sorbet.  It tastes a bit weird, but nice tho.

'Ask God to help you remain full of love, no matter what comes your way today. Stay focused!'

Ending this post with this photo! I was viewing all my phone photos this afternoon and found this. HAHAHA

Guess who is this! 

Ciao~