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Have you ever had the feeling of love or infatuation during childhood and adolescence?  There is a term for this feeling: puppy love. hahaha. Making the circles smaller, mentioning my former school only. Yea, you know girls. Girls like to share secrets, gossip is the term. Girls secret talks, we share the things that we think it's interesting, guys that are smart; guys we like; See the power of the gepo-ness of girls, we even talk about others crush. Yes, they are all non of our business, but we just enjoy the time gossiping about that, laughing and jio-ing each others. Someone said this is the real high school life. Study, gossip, love, or, first crush perhaps.

Haha I'm not sharing my girl friends' secrets.  Secrets are secrets. I'm so cagey about my friends' secrets. So tell me secrets XD nah just joking.

I just got back from SI and I was so bored.  I viewed some photos which were taken last year.  The pilot light of memory flickers in my eyes.  Now, still flickering. Somehow a mood of melancholy just descended on me.
I just wish that we can talk like friends. But that never happens. We look like friends in other people eyes, but both of us know what's going on. Perhaps it's because of all the rumour which is really true.  Telling so many lies just to deny all the rumour, but lastly I chose to admit everything. I have never thought that I was that brave. It's like... I immediately reeled off everything in just a minute. cool huh. XD

I told that I have no qualifications to say this but I should leave no regrets in my life before 18, so I chose to tell. I didn't request any answer but yea I still got the reply. "We are friends." Yes, we are friends but I hope we are normal friends. We never laugh like normal friends always do, never chat like normal friends always do and lots more. The tension between us was almost tangible. True what.
After that we didn't contact each other for almost two months, till now, we have no any conversations, not even on msn or facebook. It is just like someone who tries to chase the sun but will never reach it. We should turn a deaf ear to the rumours. They just suck a lot.

I know it sounds pathetic but I was only depressed for few days, not even a week. Why? because I was too busy last term until I have no time to be dejected. However this subject is still a taboo in our gang unless I start to talk about it.

Arh the strong wind just screeched in my ears. Stop blowing please. It's spring! Give me 25 degree Celsius everyday then I'll be fine. Oh np, I am fine, always.

Give me a break. What I need is just an unequivocal NO. You can mock but don't show a greasy smile.
Snip, snip, snip, went the scissors! Pray hard for you, I wish you all the best.
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